next time you come round, i may not be here.

this is pretty. (:


duh! thats why i wanna go dance dance like its the last last night of my life. ):


but sometimes, when they grow up, its too late.

It made me wonder how many times we forgive just because we don’t want to lose someone, even if they don’t deserve our forgiveness.

Sometimes it’s easier to say you don’t care instead of trying to explain every reason you do.
no wonder. sighs.

You know what sucks about falling for a guy you know you’re not right for? You fall anyway because you think he might turn out to be different.
“
— Another Cinderella Story
so true, it sucks.


I’m mad at myself, not you. I’m mad for making you a huge part of my life, wasting my time on you, depending on you, thinking about you, wishing for you, dreaming of you, changing for you, and most of all, I’m mad at myself for not hating you when I know that I should.
im passed being mad. at least i hope i am.


Relationships are worth fighting for. But not if you’re the only one fighting.
not when we're fighting against each other. its not fair to say im the only one fighting cos i know you put in effort too but we're just fighting for different things.

she's hot (:


no, not really. sometimes, its just another chance for you to dig at my heart. but i guess what doesnt kill you makes you stronger.

take me somewhere.

hello

damn wheres my auto colour change when i put words in italics? there used to be. ): in blue. grr. and i just realised that my other blog has that though. hees.

Before you, I was never so emotional. No one could make me cry, and no one made me think so hard. But now the tears flow like rain from the saddest sky there is, and my frantic thoughts are tearing me apart. I’m not going to let it end this way. I’m done feeling sorry for myself, and I’m done being broken, and I’m done letting you make me feel like that at all. I’m going to make myself stronger, no matter how I have to do it. Because these thoughts are enough to drive someone insane, and I’m not going to let that be me anymore. I’m taking a stand.

YAY! im not alone. i like. (:


It has taken me a while, but I’m learning that letting go of the past is a good thing. It doesn’t mean forgetting, it just means moving on. Because the fact is, we can’t enjoy the present, and embrace the future when we’re still stuck in the past.
):

I have the tendency to do that; to blow things up to be bigger than they are. I look at the negatives, instead of the positives. And, I certainly don’t think anything through with logic. But, somehow you put up with that, and that amazes me on a daily basis. That even though I’m a nervous wreck half the time, you’re still here.
this was the reason why i held on for so long. note the past tenses.

Letting go isn’t a one time thing, its something you do everyday, over and over again.
“
— Dawson’s Creek

because if you work hard for something and then fail, it hurts much more doesnt it?

people are always tryin to fuck up other people's life by tellin lies about em. you really wanna fuck someone's life up? tell the truth about em, they aint never gonna be the same.




ok, i kinda like the way its spelt. (:

Look, I guarantee there’ll be tough times. I guarantee that at some time, one or both of us is gonna want to get out of this thing. But I also guarantee that if I don’t ask you to be mine, I’ll regret it for the rest of my life, because I know, in my heart, you’re the only one for me.
sighs, i'll just die if someone says that to me.

One day you’re gonna want that girl. That girl that knew she wasn’t perfect, but tried to be perfect for you. The girl that believed the scraps of you she was given were worth it, because something was better than nothing. That girl who wanted nothing more than to be there for you, and loving you was the only way she could. The girl who sees your flaws, but values them as much as your strengths. That girl who still can’t bring herself to hate you, even though sometimes you probably deserve it. That girl who saw past your pretty eyes and treasured parts of you that no one else has ever appreciated. The girl who realizes she may never have your heart, but will carry the image of you in hers forever. The girl that sees this and still loves you. The girl that should have you, but doesn’t.. Even though she deserves it.

shit. im always walking behind. hokai, maybe cos i normally dont know the way too.


catchy song. nice lyrics but sounds a tad bit like a christian song. hahas

I wanna marry you because you’re the first person I wanna look at when I wake up in the morning, and the only one I wanna kiss goodnight. Because the first time when I saw these hands, I couldn’t imagine not being able to hold them. But mainly, when you love someone as much as I love you, getting married is the only thing left to do. So, will you, um, marry me?
“
— Definitely, Maybe
I WANT TO BE PROPOSED TO LIKE THIS. ok. somewhat like this, sorta-ish

catchy, i like (:
fool me, fool me.
oh, how you do me.


Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy
Do you do what you did when you
did with me
Does he love you the way I can
Did you forget all the plans
that you made with me
'cause baby I didn't


That should be me
Holdin' your hand
That should be me
Makin' you laugh
That should be me
This is so sad
That should be me
That should be me
That should be me
Feelin' your kiss
That should be me
Buyin' you gifts
This is so wrong,
I can't go on,
till you believe that
That should be me

That should be me
Yeah,
You said you needed a little time
for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time
to have me replaced
But did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies
Whatcha doin' to me
you're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're tryin' to break my heart
it's working 'cause you know that

I need to know should I fight
for our love for this long
It's getting harder to shield
this pain in my heart

That should be me

sing that to me?

When people try to break you, don’t let them. The trick to winning isn’t winning, to fight, or to pretend like it doesn’t affect you. You just don’t let them break you, that’s when you won the battle for yourself.
“
— (via pehthestar)

i want this as my wedding song. *heart melts.

love knows no past tense. you either never loved or you never stopped.
- Noel Calhoun (The Notebook)

Do one thing everyday that scares you.
ELEANOR ROOSEVELT
seriously? tempted to, but no.

Beauty gets the attention, Personality gets the heart.
ALFRED MUTETI
now i see why you left.

You’re a different human being to everyone you meet.
CHUCK PALAHNIUK, RANT
i guess that's somewhat true. im sorry for judging. i am.


i agree only to a certain extent.

You were the first nice guy I met after so many bad ones. And I didn’t know if you were the one or just the first good one, so I went out and met some more guys. Some of them were fine, but none of them were you.
“
— Men in Trees

aww, so sweet. now, when will i meet mine? sighs.

It’s hard to resist the temptation of loving someone for the sake of being with someone, so I think you are really brave to wait for the right one to come along. People don’t want to be alone.
“
— The Leap Years

fuck, thats true. trust me, i know.



can i please have that for my next real relationship?

We are at our sexiest when we feel the most confident. We are at our least attractive when we are sure of our inadequacies and practically cave in on ourselves to conceal them… We all handicap ourselves with insecurity, and it’s up to us to reset the self-worth scale and alter the message we sound out into the world… So how do we remind ourselves of our fabulousness without letting our self-doubt or the criticism of others drag us down? Triggers. We wear heels. We get waxed. We do things that make us attractive to ourselves and, therefore, able to allow others to do the same. And they work… Confidence is a state of mind, but sometimes we need to give ourselves permission to realize it. There is nothing wrong with embracing the tools that allow us to get there; heels, bikini waxes, whatever. As long as we’re aware of the fact that we are worth the same with or without these tools…
OLIVIA WILDE

Alex: Listen. You had that heart patient and it reminded you of Denny and how bad you felt when you were lying on that bathroom floor. I get that! I get that you're scared. But you're not going to have to feel like that again. Because I'm not going to die, Izz. And I'm not gonna cheat on you, and I'm not gonna go anywhere! 'Cause, I think you're my best shot at... I think with you... you make me better. You make me wanna BE better. You make me want to be good. And I think I can. With you. I think I can. So I'm not going anywhere, and you can stop hiding. And if you wanna be scared that's okay just be scared with me. Be scared while you scrub in with me on my first solo surgery. Okay?
Izzie: You love me.
Alex: Shut up. [kisses her, leaves] Solo surgery!


Derek: I love you and you love me. And whatever happens, I don't care. I don't want to know. I mean it. I don't want to know.
Meredith: Well the lab already has my blood so..
Derek: Here's what we're gonna do. No more doctors, no more labs. You and I we have a lot of sex. Maybe we make a baby, maybe we do not. Maybe you get Alzheimer's, maybe you do not. Just screw the odds, screw science. Let's just live. Whatever happens. Happens. Me and you. Okay?
Meredith: Okay.
Derek: Okay!

i so love grey's anatomy :D

And when someone apologizes to you enough times for the things they’ll never stop doing, I think it’s fearless to stop believing them. It’s fearless to say “you’re not sorry,” and walk away.
“
— Taylor Swift

but shes not a really good advisor to go to when it comes to relationship matters isnt it?



I just want you to know that I have been here all along, just waiting. Waiting for you to notice me, waiting for you to care. Waiting for you to say that you have been waiting too, waiting for you to say that you feel the same way as I do.

Someone once told me, “You can do better. You deserve much more.” And truth be told, the person is right. But usually when we love, we love someone for who they are despite what they have done. It’s not so much about who we deserve, but who we want, who we need and who we love. That’s how love is.

hmms, but words dont mean as much as actions do they? cos words are just words till you give them meaning.



fuckyeahtattoos:
My sister died of cancer at seven, about five years ago. She was almost buried with my favorite childhood stuffed elephant that I had given to her while she was sick but my mother pulled it from the casket last second. The picture is very akin to what the actual stuffed elephant looks like. The butterfly is because I had these large wire butterflies hanging from my ceiling in my bedroom. A few days after she died my mother woke up (we slept together a lot during that time) to one of the butterflies resting on me, perfectly as I slept. She didn’t leave. She’s still with me. I think that’s what she wanted me to know.
Done by Jake at Skinsations in Norman, OK

thats real touching. ):