i never wanna grow up Thursday 31 July 2008
caught batman the dark knight yesterday
wasnt as good as everyone seems to be saying
it was like climax all the way
too much of 'exciting' parts for me
and joker?
i didnt think he was really that good lah
and i didnt realise harvey dent was the two-faced villain until the end
ok, im slow
whatever
im stressed over the human race 1okm
sighs
and am not too happy now
over little things here and there
im just not fated to buy cheap stuff off the net
darn!
you either die a hero or live long enough to see yourself become a villain.
Monday 28 July 2008
ok. online shopping is really addictive
but i think im really picky
seeing people going bankrupt buying clothes online
i not bankrupt YET
but i guess i'll be soon
just bought a skirt for $30
wasnt in a good mood
therefore, judgement wasnt all that good
whats more, it isnt a casual kind of skirt
kinda regret it a lil bit now
BUT! im shopping for the perfect top to go with it
then maybe after that i wont
hahas
darn
girls will be girls
buy a skirt and now shopping for a top to go with it
then after we'll probably shop for bag, shoes and accessories to go with them
spendthrift!
tsktsktsk!!
OH WELLLS!
i wanna run 10k under one and a half hour
anyone wanna wait for me at the finishing line to give support?
When I was young I used to pray for a bike,
then I realized that God doesn't work that way,
so I stole a bike and prayed for forgiveness.
then I realized that God doesn't work that way,
so I stole a bike and prayed for forgiveness.
i cant help it
this joke is super duper funny
im not making fun of religion though
seriously
Rob Thomas
Ever The Same
We were drawn from the weeds
We were brave like soldiers
Falling down under the pale moonlight
You were holding to me
Like a someone broken
And I couldn't tell you but I'm telling you now
Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you so we both fall down
Fall on me
Tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you forever in me
Ever the same
We would stand in the wind
We were free like water
Flowing down
Under the warmth of the sun
Now it's cold and we're scared
And we've both been shaken
Look at us
Man, this doesn't need to be the end
Just let me hold you while you're falling apart
Just let me hold you so we both fall down
Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
You may need me there
To carry all your weight
But you're no burden I assure
You tide me over
With a warmth I'll not forget
But I can only give you love
Fall on me tell me everything you want me to be
Forever with you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Call on me
I'll be there for you and you'll be there for me
Forever it's you
Forever in me
Ever the same
Forever in you
Forever in me
Forever the same
Sunday 27 July 2008
sentosa today again!
and im BLACK
hahas
nevermind
as long as im not yellow (im not racist yuren!)
yuren was my horsey today
yeah!
it sure is fun riding on people's shoulders
and i didnt expect to see chengzi there
didnt even know he's back in singapore
by the way, did i mention that yuren looked so different!
well, he looks better with his super short hair now
almost could not recognise him
photos anyways
us! pardon my fat face. arghhs!
black and white. (IM NOT RACIST! you know the game hei bai pei? yeah. us)
our driver (:
his dad's car is exactly the same model as my dad's. hahas.
anyways, more cam whoring photos after arisa and ren send me em
This Time by Jonathan Rhys Meyers
Tonight the sky above
Reminds me of you, love
Walking through wintertime
Where the stars all shine
The angel on the stairs
Will tell you I was there
Under the front porch light
On a mystery night
I've been sitting watching life pass from the sidelines
Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds
I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind
Would the wind be at my back ? Could I get you off my mind
This time
The neon lights in bars
And headlights from the cars
Have started a symphony
Surrounding Me
The things I left behind
Have melted in my mind
And now there's a purity
Inside of me
I've been sitting watching life pass from the sidelines
Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds
I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind
Would the wind be at my back ? Could I get you off my mind
This time
I've been sitting watching life pass from the sidelines
Been waiting for a dream to seep in through my blinds
I wondered what might happen if I left this all behind
Would the wind be at my back ? Could I get you off my mind
This time
Cello Concerto in E minor, Op. 85 (August's Rhapsody)
watched august rush already!
(:
hmms, i felt it was kinda slow
no offence tabi!
omgosh!
the female lead was a cello player
did i mention im intending to pick up cello too?
after ive completed my diploma in piano
well, im still considering it
there're SO MANY things i wanna do, wanna learn
im so darn OLD already
no time no time!
the music is all around us, all you have to do is listen
Friday 25 July 2008
family are people who you cant choose
they know you inside out (upside down)
thye know your good and bads points
but they love you all the same!
I LOVE MY FAMILY
:D
i want a ipod nano (product) RED badly
):
proceeds goes to Global Fund to fight HIV/AIDS in Africa
they know you inside out (upside down)
thye know your good and bads points
but they love you all the same!
I LOVE MY FAMILY
:D
i want a ipod nano (product) RED badly
):
proceeds goes to Global Fund to fight HIV/AIDS in Africa
Thursday 24 July 2008
should i or should i not?
forgot walk walk kid's meds today
since he lived one block away from me
(ya, many of my children live near me. so i have to siam them everytime i go downstairs in my ah ma-ish home clothes.)
anyways, was perspiring like crazy cos his house is further away from school than mine
but when i saw him
i just felt that i didnt really minded the extra walk
i thought he wouldnt come down with his mom to get the meds from me
i thought he'll be crying and hiding behind his mom
but no, he was so happy and smily
and even gave me a packet of food
his mom asked him if he'll like to give one packet to teacher sam, he said yes
so darn cute
(:
and he says 'thank you, teacher sam' as 'tan yu, teachap tam'
yes, he's the same walk walk kid that piss the shit out of me a few months ago
recently, he's been better
but there are still times when he irritates me
oh well, children are human too
individuals
so they have their moods too
i have a new kid to hate
my aussie kid
arghhs!
her poor mom is pregnant and shagged like anything
i hope my child isnt going to be sucha handful
Wednesday 23 July 2008
random thoughts today
my worst and best memories of school are of the same people
i shouldnt see my work as a job, rather a profession
i mean guiding the children
being there in their everyday life
i didnt realise that they play an important part in my life too
i learn from them too
sometimes, things seen from a child's point of view is very different from an adult's
the way they behave, talk
the way their brain work
did you ever wonder how children start to learn how to talk?
how did they connect, link things to words?
i dont know, im just fascinated
guess i kinda gained enlightenment today
people ask me, do i intend to stay in this line for the rest of my life?
well, i dont know
but i do know every job/profession have its good and bad points
as long as you enjoy, it doesnt matter how long you stay in it
i wouldnt say i totally enjoy
but i love being part of my children's life!
:D
im looking into speech therapy now
seeing that there isnt play therapy courses offered in Singapore
darn!
im freaking gaining weight like crazy!
nooooooooo!!
Friday 18 July 2008
a) Answer the questions below, do a Google Image Search with your answer,
take a picture from the first page of results, do it with minimal words of explanation.
b) Tag 5 other people to do the same once you've finished answering every question
1. The age you'll be on your next birthday:
2. A place you'll like to travel to:
3. Your favourite place:
4. Your favourite food(s) :
5.Your favourite pet:
6. Your favourite colour combination:
7. Your favourite piece of clothing:
8. Your all-time favourite song:
9. Your favourite TV show:
10. First name of your significant other/crush:
11. The town in which you live:
12. Your screen name/nickname:
13. Your first job:
14. Your dream job:
15. A bad habit you have:
16. Your worst fear:
17. The one thing you'd like to do before you die:
18. The first thing you'll buy if you get $1,000,000:
I TAG TABI, SAM ANN, VANN, NIGEL AND ARISA!
since jas already did it
went to the zoo today
our first excursion
gosh it was really tiring and we didnt even get to finish walking the route that we mapped out
luckily we had many parents with us
and it only started to rain when we were about to board bus
or else who knows what will happened
im brain dead now
but im not able to sleep
not even able to eat
normally when i go for an excursion, i'd be damn shagged and have no appetite
oh wells
in another 15mins i'll be going home from work
weee!
went to the animal show
and they had a ferret that we thought was named nigel
but it wasnt
hahas!
shall post the very few photos that i have some time later
Thursday 17 July 2008
listened to forever in love by kenny G on nig's lj
i dont know how to describe but there were funny feelings in me
oh, he played well
anyways, here's a song i heard on the radio
kinda sad
I just want to say hello to you
But you’re not looking my way like you trying to and claim
I think I lost my mind back there and then
Oh how I let my feelings go
*You see I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’d put aside
Thought friends we would be oh boy
**Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way it fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
I’d fades away
Hmm…
You just want to say hello to me
Now the table’s turned, I’m not looking your way
Don’t get it wrong, ooh it’s twisted, I’d break it
Make the story short
Repeat *
Repeat **
Hoo…
Why did it have to go down this way
I’d admit I feel you when you are near
Maybe baby we got it all wrong
Repeat ** twice
It’s gone, it’s gone
We got it all wrong…
It fades away…
But you’re not looking my way like you trying to and claim
I think I lost my mind back there and then
Oh how I let my feelings go
*You see I know it’s just a crush
And a crush won’t ever last long
No one’s forcing it, boy
So you I’d put aside
Thought friends we would be oh boy
**Sadly you took my smile away
Every time you look my way it fades away
I think it’s best it stays this way
Every time you look my way
I’d fades away
Hmm…
You just want to say hello to me
Now the table’s turned, I’m not looking your way
Don’t get it wrong, ooh it’s twisted, I’d break it
Make the story short
Repeat *
Repeat **
Hoo…
Why did it have to go down this way
I’d admit I feel you when you are near
Maybe baby we got it all wrong
Repeat ** twice
It’s gone, it’s gone
We got it all wrong…
It fades away…
Wednesday 16 July 2008
heard of the human race 10k?
yeah, i registered for it
stop laughing lah
i'll try not to collaspe during it
yes, samantha the lazy bum is going for a 10k run
i'll probably die there
seeing that i always almost die during the yearly 2.4k run
i havent exercise for three years!
gosh
oh wells
its for experience
its for experience
(:
Tuesday 15 July 2008
i saw a stray golden retriever today
with an old collar and the leash still attached to his neck
what bastard would do such thing?!
what if the leash got stuck somewhere and the dog would not be able to get away!
in the first place, why do such thing to the dog?!
if you cant afford to keep a dog
then dont do it!
its really heart breaking
so i took off the leash and collar for it
sighs
but i still cant help it
Monday 14 July 2008
i seem to be stepping on people's toes these days
am i too sensitive or are people really pissed off?
i dont know
its just a guessing game i guess
seeing that no one's gonna clear the air
and words have hidden meaning?
life i guess?
or is it simply the way i handle things?
the words i say?
the way i behave?
i wear my heart on my sleeves and not many people can accept that
just like how i need to be told and not keep me guessing
how you really feel and what you think
but then again,
face to face confrontations may lead to bigger quarrels
so how, i ask?
misunderstandings, accusations, finger pointing and tongues wagging
ok, now that's starting to sound a wee bit ridiculous
maybe i just cannot get too close to people emotionally
seems i cant handle relationships well of any kind
different people, different character, different methods of handling emotions and feelings
crap.
reason why i prefer children to adults
children are just so innocent
(though not all the time. the saying, "children don't lie." isn't true.)
they are so real and true to their feelings
they do not pretend to treat people nice even if they do not like them
no hypocrisy
im referring to people in general
don't get sensitive you all
alrights i better end here
or im going to start digging out all the old memories that i tried to hard to store away
(time really do help)
old wounds aint gonna open again
i suck at being friends
QUIT ASSUMING!
HUMANS' BAD BAD HADBIT!
Sunday 13 July 2008
SINGFEST ANYONE?
i wanna gooooo
*sighs but its bloody expensive
went to the library all by myself today
wasnt as bad as i thought it would be
i never did liked going out alone
but i needed the book for my lesson
but guess what?!
nlb online showed that the book was available for loan
but i could not find it!
arghhs
guess i gotta change my lesson
anyways, i bought another eeyore stuff toy
and strangers complimented that he was cute!
i was holding him in my hands
(hey, save the earth you know? besides i was already going home.)
here's eeyore!
i cant open jpeg so eeyore is sideways
*grumbles grumbles
heres something that my sister spotted
theres a heart shape can you see?
thats my block!
guess which
hahas
initiating conversations, you do not
Saturday 12 July 2008
i hate it when people dont reply me
why is it that i have to keep repeating my questions?
is it not enough that i do so everyday at work?
whatever lah
ah! life is crap
whats the use of saying sorry?
Friday 11 July 2008
did you watch high school musical?
ok, i think this is darn cute
(:
you do what you want cos im not what you want
Tuesday 8 July 2008
I'm not who I was
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was
And I found my way around to forgiving you
Sometime ago
But I never got to tell you, so far
I found us on a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh, you know
I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever love me
Just for who I was
When the pain came back again
It's like a bit a friend
That's all that I can do
To free myself from blaming you
I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out that I could sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
But I'm not who I was
I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know
That I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello
But the thing I found most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was.
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was
I used to be mad at you
A little on the hurt side too
But I'm not who I was
And I found my way around to forgiving you
Sometime ago
But I never got to tell you, so far
I found us on a photograph
I saw me and I had to laugh, you know
I'm not who I was
You were there, you were right above me
And I wonder if you ever love me
Just for who I was
When the pain came back again
It's like a bit a friend
That's all that I can do
To free myself from blaming you
I reckon it's a funny thing
I figured out that I could sing
Now I'm not who I was
I write about love and such
Maybe 'cause I want it so much
But I'm not who I was
I was thinking maybe I
I should let you know
That I am not the same
But I never did forget your name
Hello
But the thing I found most amazing
In amazing grace
Is the chance to give it out
Maybe that's what love is all about
I wish you could see me now
I wish I could show you how
I'm not who I was.
song of life?
arghhs!
im having insomnia again
cos i keep thinking of you when i dont want to
i cant help it
can someone please help me?
i toss and turn every night
i wake up three, four times a night
im really not sleeping well
mentally drained
*sighs
cecelia adern is quite a good writer
cant stop reading ps i love you
no, im not reading because of the movie
i wanted to get it before the movie was even out
a different style from nora roberts
thanks tim for lending me the book! (:
gonna borrow her other books from the library sooon
i like reading!
The Click Five
Empty
Tried to take a picture
Of love
Didn't think I'd miss her
That much
I wanna fill this new frame
But it's empty
Tried to write a letter
In ink
It's been getting better
I think
I got a piece of paper
But it's empty
It's empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
And I even wonder
If we
Should be getting under
These sheets
We could lie in this bed
But it's empty
It's empty
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
Oh oh
Oh oh
Oooooh
Oh oh
Oh oh
Maybe we're trying
Trying too hard
Maybe we're torn apart
Maybe the timing
Is beating our hearts
We're empty
(Maybe we're trying)
(Trying too hard)
(Maybe we're torn apart)
We're empty
(Maybe the timing)
(Is beating our hearts)
We're empty
you do what you want cos im not what you want
Monday 7 July 2008
the schools were quiet today
no students, no cars
youth day holiday today
no fair
come on man, im a youth too
anyways, it was really quiet as i walked to school
i had to walk behind catholic high and through private estates
it seemed like 7 in the evening rather than in the morning
was kinda eerie
luckily i had my zen stone plus to accompany
seriously, without it
it'll be too quiet
anyways, the new show
beach, balls, babes aired today
watching em volley makes me wanna do so too
thinking of getting a ball but its difficult to get people to play with
or to even go sentosa with
oh wells
the outing with airu and gang was really fun
we played volley and ziming was damn funny
going all out to save the ball and blatantly oogling at girls (oops!)
oh wells
hopefully this weekend goes well (:
Over You by Matt Wertz
It's been 10 months since July seven
You closed the door, I left it open
Holding out for what might be someday
so you lingered, I took you with me
through the country, every city
Thinking I'd be better off this way
I don't wanna get over you
I've tried it a thousand times
It don't matter what I do
So bittersweet I still remember
Every part of your phone number
Tempted, you're just 10 digits away
I've gotta tell you, go down firing
leave the darkness, cease the striving
Knowing that i'll never be the same
I don't wanna get over you
I've tried it a thousand times
It don't matter what I do
I guess I don't wanna get over you
I can't get you off my mind
I thought it was time you knew
It's so hard to let you go
With all the spaces you still roam
You're everything in between
I don't wanna get over you
I've tried it a thousand times
It don't matter what I do
I guess I don't wanna get over you
I can't get you off my mind
I thought it was time you knew (x2)
Sunday 6 July 2008
what do you think of taylor swift's songs?
i think they're innocent and honest
they make me feel like a teenager still in my early teens
(darn, im getting old. few more months to the big 20!)
(darn, im getting old. few more months to the big 20!)
oh wells
here's one that i think kinda suits you
but before that
here's a snapple fact
"real fact" #61
pigs get sunburn
Taylor Swift
Cold As You
You have a way of coming easily to me
And when you take, you take the very best of me
So I start a fight cause I need to feel something
And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted
[Chorus:]
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray
And I stood there loving you and wished them all away
And you come away with a great little story
Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you
[Chorus]
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
So Just walk away, ain't no use defending words that you will never say
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you
And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you, died for you
Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day
Oh Every smile you fake is so condescending
Counting all the scars you made
And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through
I've never been anywhere cold as you
wont you let me know you?
Saturday 5 July 2008
ive swollen feet
and nine blisters on both feet
ah! the price of vanity
walked from orchard to my grandmas place
dad said the distance's more than 5km
but i wasnt tired at all
just really really sweaty
cousin bought ice-cream for me after
thanks!
so i guess the run next year shouldnt be a problem lah
anyways, do you know the shop CNS?
gosh, the stuff they sell is awfully cute!
there's this green water bottle with a crocodile picture
aww..
i wannnnt it
but ive been spending too much!
so i gotta stop
been eating too much subway too
guess im addicted to the cookies
the double chocolate cookies are to die for
i like the sticky, chewy insides
and the crunchy outside
plus the feeling after eating
aint bloatedness and full
just nice, though i wouldnt say the sandwiches are all that good
wrist's hurting again
better stop
Fall Out Boy
Thanks For The Memories
[Intro]
I'm gonna make you bend and break,
(It sends you to me without wait)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll!
In case God doesn't show...
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
[Verse 1]
And I want these words to make things right,
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life,
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got,
Better put your fingers back to the keys!
[Chorus]
One night and one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Even though they weren't so great;
"He tastes like you only sweeter"!
One night, yeah, and one more time,
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories;
"See, he tastes like you only sweeter"!
[Verse 2]
Been looking forward to the future,
When my eyesight is going bad,
And this crystal ball.
It's always cloudy except for, (Except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past),
One night stand... (one night stand off),
[Chorus]
One night and one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Even though they weren't so great;
"He tastes like you only sweeter"!
One night, yeah, and one more time,
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories;
"See, he tastes like you only sweeter"!
[Middle-eight]
They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa
[Chorus]
One night and one more time,
Thanks for the memories,
Even though they weren't so great;
"He tastes like you but sweeter"!
One night, yeah, and one more time,
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories;
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"!
[Chorus]
One night and one more time (One more night, one more time),
Thanks for the memories,
Even though they weren't so great;
"He tastes like you but sweeter"!
One night, yeah, and one more time (One more night, one more time),
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories;
"See, he tastes like you only sweeter"!
Friday 4 July 2008
havent been online for a few days
why?
sprained my right wrist of all places
and its been in bandage
felt like a freaking cripple
now its hurting again
I'd Lie lyrics
I don’t think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He’ll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I’m laughing cause I hope he wrong
I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs
And..
[chorus]
I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father’s eyes
And if you ask me if I love him,
I’d lie
He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn’t a light go on?
Doesn’t he know I’ve had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don’t let nobody see me wishing he was mine
[chorus]
He stands there then walks away
My god if I could only say
I’m holding every breathe for you...
He’d never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle
Yes I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father’s eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him
I’d lie
I don’t think that passenger seat
Has ever looked this good to me
He tells me about his night
And I count the colors in his eyes
He’ll never fall in love he swears
As he runs his fingers through his hair
I’m laughing cause I hope he wrong
I don't think it ever crossed his mind
He tells a joke I fake a smile
That I know all his favorite songs
And..
[chorus]
I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue, born on the seventeenth
His sister's beautiful, he has his father’s eyes
And if you ask me if I love him,
I’d lie
He looks around the room
Innocently overlooks the truth
Shouldn’t a light go on?
Doesn’t he know I’ve had him memorized for so long?
He sees everything black and white
Never let nobody see him cry
I don’t let nobody see me wishing he was mine
[chorus]
He stands there then walks away
My god if I could only say
I’m holding every breathe for you...
He’d never tell you but he can play guitar
I think he can see through everything
But my heart
First thought when I wake up is
My god he’s beautiful
So I put on my make up
And pray for a miracle
Yes I could tell you his favorite colors green
He loves to argue oh and it kills me
His sisters beautiful he has his father’s eyes
And if you asked me if I love him
If you ask me if I love him
I’d lie