you always leave me like this,
hanging in the air,
questions unanswered,
doubts unconfirmed.
now who's to blame?

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!!
WEE
LOVE OPENING PRESENTS
:D
and i got a watch!
ve been looking for a white watch for some time
and i got one for teachers day
sweet!
i was also fretting about what accessories to wear on wednesday
and i got a necklace!
:D
samantha is a happy happy teacher
hope baby can go tomorrow
i miss him
its not that i cant go by myself
but hey, its been some time since i saw him
too bad about wednesday though
oh wells
plans arent going well for tomorrow
seven people were invited to zhu lao shi house
but seems like only two of us are going
the rest are either taking care of their unwell family members
or too busy
which means the steamboat-ing will be cut short
oh wells
by the way, heres the ris-embarrassment-low-miss-singapore-world-winner
WHAT THE HELL MAN?!
she can win ar?
shes not even pretty or good looking so to say
sucha disgrace
mygawd her english
shit man
its a real torture to listen to her
you know what?
i'll just post the link here
dont even wanna embed her video here
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1JbsVONKZY4

went bowling today and after that to vivo
finally satisfied my craving of ben & jerrys chocolate therapy
:D
spent so muchhhh
boos
anyways, was kinda fun
though three of us were kinda shagged
yans not having a good day
tobs feeling damn tired cos of outfield
and im falling sick
see, even doing nothing it wasnt sucha bad day
ha!
rains finally stopped
hohums
this is boring
dont even know what i wanna type
must be the virus
samantha is liking her new blogskin
do you? :D

so theyre called your friends eh?
so why am i the fool
people that you meet while you were younger are more real than the ones you meet much later



dreaming bout the day when you wake up and find that what youre lookin for has been here the whole time

omgosh
jbarks' english is good~
so falling for his slang
:D
http://www.facebook.com/video/video.php?v=112972425903&ref=share
and he sound so foreign speaking hokkien
i had to repeat that part three times to catch what he was saying!
hahas
samanthawilltryveryhardtospeakproperenglish

i have extremely short term memory
i can recall something that i need to get while being seated and when i stand up to get it,
i forget what i wanted to get
damn
i cant recall some of the things you say
but there are some that i do
and i wanna hold on to just those
cos if im able to remember,
they're worth remembering
my kids are so adorable!
*squeals
was taking a photo with ashley and denise came to disturb
"wei wei wei" she said
laughing as she did
so cute
and jenna was so sticky to me today
her smile is sooooo sweet!
aww..
which brings me to another thought which has been lingering in my mind
everyones taking their degree
but do i wanna?
i'll definitely miss my babies
i do like my job now
but taking the degree means working for moe with bond
should i go with something i need or want?
its always this case
be it personal or work
life's kinda screwed i guess
i hate making decisions cos i cant adapt to changes
or rather i dont like em

All this time I was wasting
Hoping you would come around
I've been giving out chances every time
And all you do is let me down

post 801:
guess it helps seeing your picture everyday
knowing that that feeling is slowly dying
even though it wasnt that much to begin with
anyways, went to 15minutes at laselle yesterday
free dinner and songs
yes, you read me right
free dinnerrrrrrrrrrrr
muahahahahhs!
the ambience was not bad
the lighting comforting
and we got to tour laselle after
the school's cool man
no wonder the students pay so much!
anyways, while waiting for yan
i was reading goodnight beautiful
and i didnt even know half an hour had passed while waiting
the only proof of the time spent was the ache in my legs
seriously it all boils down to the author man
great book!
no, awesomeeeeee!
(:
i like this photo
no, correction
WE like this photo



i like what nig wrote in his blog

conversations.
It takes two, or more to make it happen.

she's just a girl with her fantasies.

http://pleasefindthis.blogspot.com/
its not a want to read this
its kinda becoming a need
to know that im not alone feeling all screwed up
knowing the words to the raw feelings buried inside of me

cant stop reading goodnight, beautiful by dorothy koomson
its the author that makes all that difference

there are so many times when what i heard is not what you said
misinterpration or half truths or bad listening
i dont know
am sick of these
wondering if you said it wrongly or im just simply a bad listener
fuck
im not going to discuss our problems here
shit
am just feeling pissed
why cant i just stop
you know, just once and for all break this
you cant too
why?
its not going to work out
we're too different
said that too many times
so why doesnt it stick in my mind?
just fucking stick can?

i wanna run away.
never say goodbye.
i wanna know tthe truth, instead of wondering why.

i gotta stumb out that lil flicker of hope i still have
cos its not going to work

you complain when youre being treated nicely
you complain when youre not

ooh, in the mist of watching twilight
interesting
its so darn cool to know a family of vampires who dont you
edward cullen is good boyfriend material
hahas!
but i totally dislike the two main actors
theyre not even good looking
going back to continue
its ending soon
你需要我的微笑, 我需要你的拥抱.

im so going to fail my piano exams
sighs
out of five questions in theory exam, have only started on two
one of which i am flanking terribly at
have aural, sight reading, scales and pieces for practical
and im dying for all of them
i'll definitely fail aural and sight reading
hopefully my pieces and scales can pull me up
but then again, im taking three months and counting to perfect one piece
and ive three to play
exams' in march next year
IM SO DEAD!
i wanna go shoppinggggg
i find that im wasting my weekends away when ive nothing planned
no life, you know?
its not that i dont like spending time at home and with my family
just that when there's nothing much to do, its just damn boring
by the way, saw this on nig's blog
amazing
one dog saving another dog's life
was kinda worried that the second dog might get hit too
but.. watch and you'll know



you've started your streak of empty talk again.

've decided
am going to learn cello after getting grade 8 in piano
anyone wants to donate to my 'buy a cello' fund?
kinda been wired wrongly these few days
the slightest thing can make me shout
but i dont feel pissed
just voided
so whats wrong with me?
mom's really pissed now
cos of my rudeass bitch sister
she never learns
shit attitude problem
no wonder she just keeps studying and not work
she'll probably not survive more than half a year
anyways, been craving for ben & jerry's chocolate therapy since i last ate it
damn
i like the acoustic version
but cant find a better vid/mp3 better than this


fergie - clumsy

Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

First time
That I saw your eyes
Boy you looked right through me, mmmhmm
Play it cool
But I knew you knew
That cupid hit me, mmm mmm

[Chorus:]
You got me tripping, stumbling, flipping, fumbling
Clumsy cause I'm falling in love
You got me slipping, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cause I'm falling in love
So in love with you

Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

Can't breath
When you touch my sleeve
Butterflies so crazy, mmm mmm
Whoa now, think I'm going down
Friends don't know whats with me, mmm mmm

[Chorus]

Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

You know, this isn't the first time this has happened to me
This love sick thing
I like serious relationships and a
A girl like me don't stay single for long
Cause everytime a boyfriend and I break up
My world is crushed and I'm all alone
The love bug crawls right back up and bites me and I'm back

Can't help it
The girl can't help it [repeat 3x]

[Chorus]

So in love with you
So in love with you

if i can have it my way, it so will not be like that.

this a sad sad song
its depressing, precisely why i like it
i dont know
uncle nick says i listen to songs that girls normally dont
so what are the songs that girls normally listen to?
love songs?
i too, just depressing ones
ha!
arent they mostly that way too?
well, in a way im special can?
and im glad you like it too
'tis song's for you, bee
;p



by the way, the lyrics and the song arent the same
the script - before the worst

It's been a while since the two of us talked
About a week since the day that you walked
Knowing things would never be the same
With your empty heart and mine full of pain
So explain to me, how it came to this
Take it back to the night we kissed
It was Dublin City on a Friday night
You were vodkas and coke, I was Guinness all night

We were sitting with our backs against the world
Saying things that we thought but never heard
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is trying to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

There was a time that we'd stay up all night
Best friends talking till the daylight
Took the joys alongside the pain
With not much to loose, but so much to gain
Are you hearing me? Cause I don't wanna miss,
Set you a drift on memory bliss
It was Grafton Street on a rainy night
I was down on one knee and you were mine for life

We we're thinking we would never be apart
With your name tattooed across my heart
Who would have thought it would end up like this?
Where everything we talked about is gone
And the only chance we have of moving on

Is trying to take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

If the clouds don't clear
Then we'll rise above it, we'll rise above it
Heavens gate is so near
Come walk with me through
Just like we use to, just like we use to

Let's take it back
Before it all went wrong

Before the worst, before we mend
Before our hearts decide
It's time to love again
Before too late, before too long
Let's try to take it back
Before it all went wrong

just be yourself lah!
and do tell me about the other survey
LOLS!
imissyoulikecrazy
but you seriously have a sugarcoated mouth
can i believe em?
hees
crazy weather!
im so sticky with sweat after bath thanks to it
arghhs!
i need airconnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn
by the way, this is from facebook
You are exquisite and do not ever forget that! You are so cute... and loveable an fun to be around. Family is important to you and you are very important to them. Fixing problems along the way is not problem for you and its okay to do because people will accept you for who you are always, because you are a great person. Keep being yourself and everything will fall into place perfectly just the way you want it, even if you didn’t know it yet!
interesting
am i? :D


three words ive been using too much
1. darling
2. dear
3. OOI!
damn i need to change/correct the way i speak
shit

sneaky lil bastard
but i still love you so
not the same but still so
suchanass!
i missed going out last weekend and am missing going out
time to hit the books!
too many
roars!
here's something to mull over
awesome!
now why cant i write words like these?

I was happy but happy is an adult word. You don't have to ask a child about happy, you see it. They are or they are not. Adults talk about being happy because largely they are not. Talking about it is the same as trying to catch the wind. Much easier to let it blow all over you. This is where I disagree with the philosophers. They talk about passionate things but there's no passion in them. Never talk happiness with a philosopher.

But I'm not a child any more and often the Kingdom of Heaven eludes me too. Now, words and ideas will always slip themselves in between me and the feeling. Even our birthright feeling, which is to be happy.

This morning I smell oats and I see a little boy watching his reflection in a copper pot he's polished. His father comes in and laughs and offers him his shaving mirror instead. But in the shaving mirror the boy can only see one face. In the pot he can see all the distortions of his face. He sees many possible faces and so he sees what he might become.

http://missporcelain.livejournal.com/128011.html?view=258827#t258827

years may pass
friendship remains
but will it stay the same?

sooner or later, they'll be leaving
i dont want them to leave
maybe i should join them?
yea right
impulses impulses
):
im gonna miss them terribly

a photo,
can capture the way we were
it can't capture the way we are
cause you're far away

she's really weird
but hey she's talented
gosh, see the way she plays
no wonder they say pianists are whackos
hmms, i think im not musically talented
):
and this song is for whoever that feels this way
kinda depressing
but whatever
:p


cantonese time!
:D

hello
the internet's boring
and these two songs are not linked




you make it real for me - james morrison

There’s so much craziness surrounding me
There’s so much going on it gets hard to breathe
All my faith has gone you bring it back to me
You make it real for me
Well I’m not sure of my priorities
I’ve lost site of where I’m ment to be
And like holy water washing over me

You make it real for me
And I’m running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That’s why I’ve been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

When my head is strong but my heart is weak
I’m full of hurricanes and uncertainty
But I can find the words
You teach my heart to speak

You make it real for me yea
And I’m running to you baby
You are the only one who save me
That’s why I’ve been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me

Everybody’s talking in words
I don’t understand
You got to be the only one
Who knows just who I am
And you shine in the distance
I hope I can make it through
Cause the only place
That I want to be
Is right back home with you

I guess there’s so much more
I have to learn
But if you’re here with me
I know which way to turn
You always give me somewhere,
Somewhere I can learn

You make it real for me
And I’m running to you baby
Cause you are the only one who save me
That’s why I’ve been missing you lately
Cause you make it real for me
You make it real for me

am missing bee

cant help it
ve'been posting songs on blog
cos of the radio
i prefer listening to the radio rather than my mp3 songs
i just like listening to people talk
ha!
besides, daniel ong's my favourite dj
and he works awesomely with young
(:

Spice Girls
Say You'll Be There

Say you'll be there
I'm giving you everything all that joy
can bring this I swear

Last time that we had this conversation
I decided we should be friends
Yeah,
but now we're going round in circles,
tell me will this deja vu never end? Oh
Now you tell me that you've fallen in love,
well I never ever thought that would be
This time you gotta take it easy
throwing far too much emotions at me
But any fool can see they're falling,
I gotta make you understand

I'm giving you everything all that joy can bring this I swear
(I give you everything)
And all that I want from you is a promise you will be there
Say you will be there (Say you will be there)
Won't you sing it with me

If you, put two and two together
you will see what our friendship is for (Oh)
If you can't work this equation then
I guess I'll have to show you the door
There is no need to say you love me,
It would be better left unsaid

I'm (I'm) giving you everything (I give you everything)
all that joy can bring this I swear (yes I swear)
and (and) all that I want from you (all I want from you) is a promise
(is a promise) you will be there
Yeah, I want you

Any fool can see they're falling,
gotta make you understand

I'll give you everything on this I swear
Just promise you'll always be there
I'm giving you everything (I m giving you everything)
all that joy (all that joy can bring) can bring this I
swear (yes I swear)
and all that I want from you (all that I want from you) is a promise
(I want you to promise you'll) you
will be there (always be there)

I'm giving you everything (I m giving you everything)
all that joy (all that joy can bring) can bring this I swear (yes I swear)
and all that I want from you (all that I want from you) is a promise
(I want you to promise you'll)
you will be there (always be there)

just heard this on the radio
interesting.

Falling In Love Again

Well I’m so tired
Of falling in love
Finding it easier to fall out
You can’t deny it
I feel it inside Cupid’s fire
I can’t hide

But I’m falling in love again
Ain’t nothing I can do
Falling in love again
Girl this time it’s with you
When I fall
It’s always the same
And I’m so tired
Of playing this game

It’s been so long now
Since I gave up my heart
I’ve kept it locked down
I don’t wanna get it harmed
So let me tell you now
I just want to be sure
That you won’t hurt me
Can you promise me that

Because I’m falling in love again
Ain’t nothing I can do
Falling in love again
Girl this time it’s with you
When I fall
It’s always the same
And I’m so tired
Of playing this game

You got to tell me
If you’re going to break my heart
‘Cos I don’t wanna take the chance
And if it ain’t true
All it’s gonna be
Is nothing but a poor romance
So give me that promise to hold on
And I’ll never let you go
We gotta have something to go on
Or I’m letting you know now

I’m falling in love again
Ain’t nothing I can do
Falling in love again
Girl this time it’s with you
When I fall
It’s always the same
And I’m so tired
Of playing this game

what love song are you?
Come On Get Higher- Matt Nathanson

You are happily in love. You and your other finally found who you're meant to be with. You're happy, content, and high off this feeling of love. You smile every time you're with this person, they make you laugh just because of a memory. You're hand is empty without theirs.

hmms, partly correct.

Bubbly

I've been awake for a while now
You've got me feelin' like a child now
'Cause every time I see your bubbly face
I get the tinglees in a silly place

It starts in my toes
And I crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

The rain is fallin' on my window pane
But we are hidin' in a safer place
Under the covers stayin' safe and warm
You give me feelings that I adore

They start in my toes
Make me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

What am I gonna say
When you make me feel this way?
I just, mmm

It starts in my toes
Makes me crinkle my nose
Wherever it goes
I always know
That you make me smile
Please stay for a while now
Just take your time
Wherever you go

I?ve been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
'Cause every time you hold me in your arms
I'm comfortable enough to feel your warmth

It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin' shows
'Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time now
Holdin' me tight

Wherever, wherever, where ever you go
Wherever, wherever, where ever you go


youre different yet the same

shit
you know what they say when something amazes you that much that you just dont know what to say?
this did just that

The Bibliography Of Strings

And you taught me what this feels like.
And then how it feels to lose it.
And you showed me who I wanted.
And then who I wasn't.
And you ticked every box.
And then drew a line.
And you weren't mine to begin with.
And then not to end with.
And you looked like everything I wanted.
And then became something I hated.
And you get thought of every day.
And then not in a good way.
And you let me leave.
And then wish I'd stayed.
And you almost killed me.
But I didn't die.

http://pleasefindthis.blogspot.com
100809

seriously?
now who agrees?

Your mind rules your heart!



You tend to keep your emotions in check- your mind rules your heart. You try your best to hold your emotions back, as you don't like to appear vulnerable.

You may be moderately successful and have enough energy to last you through the day.

You are quite optimistic with a positive attitude to life- you won't let many things get you down. At times, however, you hide your emotions when you are feeling sad or lonely but generally you demonstrate a healthy balance between optimism and pessimism.

You have an average ability to concentrate. You often have to force yourself to concentrate on minor details, especially for long periods of time.

You are reliable and dependable and appear very outgoing and friendly.

**allow a close one to be a shoulder to cry on**

omgawd
am super tired now
thanks to twister at roy's
i think everyones shagged to the max now
ha!
and my cameras memory just burst
i bet theres about 150 or so photos
and more than half are unglam shots and shots of twister
was really glad to meet up today actually
seeing the last time we met was...
at harry's?
anyways, if fb allows me
i'll upload the photos

what the fuck is wrong (with you)?
gotta let it go, gotta let it goooooooo.

met yan this morning
again just now
and will be meeting her tomorrow too
now thats rare
hahas!
i love her lah
guess thats what friends do
theyre there for each other
well, they try to at least
but some people just dont
even when they say they would
i wont know unless you tell me isnt it?
so help me understand
or maybe im just not understanding enough
or i expect too much?
am nobody anyways
shit

dont wanna be the last to know
these are just my rumblings
true to time of print

i was supposed to work at 830am today
i forgot and set the alarm time at 825am
so imagine my panic when i woke up at 758am and rememebered that im working the 830am shift!
but i managed to rush to work and reach at 820am
damn, im good
hahas
and when i was walking home today
i saw two kids and their dog
omgawd
the dog was freaking cute!
and he sat when the lil boy told him to
so i pat it and stroke it
and let it jump on me
oh ya, its name is danny
i think i'll name my dog joshua
if i have one
ha!
and the boy was friendly
cute
hes about three?
and his sister is about six or so?
but hey kids, dont go around telling people where you live
But I know somehow, that only when it is dark enough, can you see the stars.
Martin Luther King Jr. (1929 - 1968)

screw that damn coward!

best thing about tonight is we're not fighting,
could it be that we have been this way before.
can i have that song?

seems like i cant go a day without crapping here
ive been tired lately,
really really tired
at night that is
and when my babies nap in school, im wide awake
damn
plus im having weird dreams again
dreamt of eason on monday
dreamt of genghui i think on tuesday
wonder what will i dream of today
and my poor darlings are getting fever
shit, theres a virus going on
and it aint flu
ive printed out a new batch of photos
finally
yeah!
now i can change the collage on my locker door
wee!

I Love You

The sun is shinin' everyday
Clouds never get in the way for you and me
I've known you just a week or two
But baby I'm so into you
Can hardly breathe

And I'm in so totally
Wrapped up emotionally
Attracted so physically
Actin' so recklessly
I need you so desperately
Sure as the sky is blue
Baby, I love you, I love you

I never knew that I could feel like this
Can hardly wait till our next kiss
You're so cool
If I'm dreaming please don't wake me up
Cause baby I can't get enough
Of what you do

And I'm in so electrically
Charged up kinetically
Actin' erratically
Need you fanatically
You get to me magically
Sure as the sky is blue
Baby, I love you

I can't believe that this is real,
the way I feel
Baby I'm gone head over heals

And I'm in so totally
Wrapped up emotionally
Attracted so physically
Actin' so recklessly
I need you so desperately
Sure as the sky is blue
(Yeah)

And I'm in so electrically
Charged up kinetically
Actin' eratically
Need you fanatically
You get to me magically
Sure as the sky is blue

Baby, I love you
Baby, I love you
Do you love me too
Baby, I love you


i think better without you clogging my mind

i like the way she thinks
muahahahs
sam wants to go heeren and illuma can?

samantha is so going to get henri from HMV

I wanted you right here with me but I have no choice you've gotta leave
Because my heart is breakin'
With every word I'm sayin'
I gave up everything I had
On something that just wouldn't last
But I refuse to cry
No tears will fall from these
Eyeee-eeee-eeees
Ooooh, ooooh
Get out


its the hoping thats tearing me apart.
Don't waste your whole life trying
To get back what was taken away

met with kah wee, chengzi and daphne today
gosh, its been long
and none of us have changed
ha!
kah wee and i used to laugh when chengzi and daph communicate
i dont know why
they're just funny to listen to
and chengzi and i are still 'fighting' as usual
well, some things just never change
went to nebo
well, the place wasnt bad
the food's not bad either
shall go there next time instead of minds
and risk was kinda boring after a long whileeeeee
will upload photos when daph sends me em
and after daph left early
the three of us just roamed around amk hub
THERE'S LIKE NOTHING TO DO THERE LAH
ended up playing pool
and you wont believe how long it took us to play three (or was it two?) games
one hour plus
ha!
and i won one of it ok!
weee
but i must admit i really suck at it
hees

i've thought it over
and it is too
but still i'd be nice
the feeling's nice
but whatever
you and i sharing a tub of b&j at the usual place,
dancing to the song 'fallin' for you'
xoxo

you know where to find me.