why do you do this to me?
why do you do this so easily?
you make it hard to smile because
you make it hard to breathe
why do you do this me?

this is our song
we danced to this remember?
i didnt know what the lyrics were at that time
now i do
so ironic
whatcha say - jason derulo

alrights!
ive a new secret
shhhhh..
:D

i wanna give up yet i dont wanna
fuck
screw that man,
no, screw you
i was fine without you man
shit

the fray - over my head

I never knew
I never knew that everything was falling through
That everyone I knew was waiting on a cue
To turn and run when all I needed was the truth
But that's how it's gonna be
It's coming down to nothing more than apathy
I'd rather run the other way than stay and see
The smoke and who's still standing when it clears and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Let's rearrange
I wish you were a stranger I could disengage
Just say that we agree and then never change
Soften a bit until we all just get along
But that's disregard
You find another friend and you discard
As you lose the arguments in a cable car
Hanging above as the canyon comes between and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on our

And suddenly I become a part of your past
I'm becoming the part that don't last
I'm losing you and its effortless
Without a sound, lose sight of the ground
In the throw around
Never thought that you wanted to bring it down
I won't let it go down till we torch it ourselves and

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind
Everyone knows
She's on your mind
Everyone knows I'm in over my head
I'm in over my head
I'm over my...

Everyone knows I'm in
Over my head
Over my head
With eight seconds left in overtime
She's on your mind
She's on your mind

Katy Perry – I Think I’m Ready

I’m used to opening my own doors and splitting the checks
He introduced me, was always just a friend
I bought a new dress, he never noticed
Always falling for these bad boys, such a challenge
I’m getting tired, of cleaning up after them
I think I’m ready to be a woman

Oh love, I think I’m ready
Ready for it

You were such a surprise
An unexpected gift
Said I was pretty, and I believed it
Not really used to all this attention
Told myself I don’t deserve you
And this is just a phase
Could I get used to, being loved the right way?
I wanna argue, but there is nothing to say

Oh love, I think I’m ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I’m ready

Cuz you send me flowers, when there’s no occasion
Yeah we talk for hours, you still wanna listen
Won’t hold it against me if I just need you to hold me tonight
My mother always told me that you’d show up one day
So scared to feel this way but love, I think I’m ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I’m ready
Ready for it
Ready for it
Oh love, I think I’m ready

and i seek comfort in your messages.

eew!
phuture's terribleee
the music sucked
and its too packed!
now heres a good time to use the phrase 'packed like sardines'
gosh
ive got the breath squashed outta me
oh and there were some eye candy too
:p
anyways, im never going back to thereeeee
butterfactory's still the one ive enjoyed so far
some time soon man

ok, i promise my babies to post their photos here
(:

cutesy and theyre all in blueeee
and my lil ashley is a big girl now!!
she can jump with both feet!
when i saw her did it, i literally jumped up (so not exaggerating here)
omgawdomgawdomgawd!
she used to always jump with one foot rooted to the ground
and today she finally did it with both feet!
cant explain the feeling
its just an extremely happy feeling
:D
and she's also able to sit on the swing by herself
intially, she couldnt balance on the swing
thus i always put her on my lap to swing together
so i tried to let her swing by herself today
and she managed to do so!
ohh ashley, next obstacle you need to conquer is your chewing and your drinking
(shall post ash's photo here when i get the chance)

was feeling in a singlish mood yesterday,
thus all the made up words
ha!
im so hungryyyyyyy
hmms, i must say
food doesnt really interest me much these days
oh wells
ive to go back to school for three saturdays again next month
sighs
im supposed to be working only one saturday a month
why?
cos of ptc AGAIN
the previous ptc i too had to go back to school for three saturdays
):
and i havent even started for this month's

i am super shagged from cycling nowwwwww
actually fell asleep in the bus
well, kinda
ha!
cycled from macs to area H
i am now chui
and my neck hurts like *toot from sleeping in the bus

ahh, wednesday
you seriously gotta be kidding me
o-m-y-g-a-w-d

this reminds me of icec
hahas
the girls liked the song, down by the bay
but i prefer these two man
(:

yan bought me ice cream again
so touched lah
sighs
theyre so concern for me
what do i do without yan and tobs?
i have such awesome friends!
thanks a lot guys
*kisses

MSTRKRFT - Heartbreaker

Remember when I caught your eye
you gave me rainbows and butterflies
we did enjoy our happiness?
when our love was over
I was such a mess

I smiled at you
and you smiled back
that's when I knew
there?s no turning back
you said you loved me
and I did too
now though it's over
I still love you

you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

I tried to fight it
I tried so hard
and every day
I pray to god
that you and me were meant to be
but you had another
you had a lover

And now is gone
I don't know why
I feel like crying
just want to die
I can't look at you
and you know why
no, I tried so hard
to catch your eye

you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

you're in my mind
you're in my heart
I wish I knew right from the start
all my friends said you break my heart
A heartbreaker right from the start

you can be my other boyfriend
for sure babe (:

hey guys, thanks for your concern
nothings going on
ha!
this just shows who is actually your friend
anyways, caught the fire fight at timbre mobile yesterday
DO NOT GO THERE!
they do not have enough people to serve
you end up having to wait a long long time before your order comes
and yan, the fire fight werent at their best yesterday
its all the crowds fault
they werent high enough
tsk!
oh oh, here are the photos
i like~







the girl taking the free polaroids was so nice
she asked if we wanted three
normally, they would only give one for us three to share isnt it?
GUESS WHO I SAW AT ION?!?!?!?!?!?
FUSHENGGGG! SHIT MAN!
dont know who?
let me refresh your memory


YA HIMMM!
shit
yan, it was a nice afternoon yesterday wasnt it?
many many eye candy
yums
:D

and this song's for you, asshole
over you - chris daughtry

Now that it's all said and done,
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down,
Like an old abandoned house.
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath.
I fell too far, was in way too deep.
Guess I let you get the best of me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

You took a hammer to these walls,
Dragged the memories down the hall,
Packed your bags and walked away.
There was nothing I could say.
And when you slammed the front door shut,
A lot of others opened up,
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for me.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.

Well, I never saw it coming.
I should've started running
A long, long time ago.
And I never thought I'd doubt you,
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know.
I'm slowly getting closure.
I guess it's really over.
I'm finally getting better.
And now I'm picking up the pieces.
I'm spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together.
Well I'm putting my heart back together,
'Cause I got over you.
Well I got over you.
I got over you.
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through,
I got over you.

words mean nothing
your actions said it all

im not reading
im just scanning through the pages
not processing
like a zombie
cos the words, "you fail to understand me. again." is etched in my mind
disturbing my every other thoughts and my ability to function normally
now when can we sort that out
shit

it's not over - daughtry

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

I thought that by telling myself and everyone else that I hated you. That sooner or later I would come to believe it. But I now realize that by lying, it makes me want you even more.

now thats what i call being in a foul mood
woke up not having enough sleep
could hardly keep my eyes open
had a dull ache in my tummy since yesterday
was kinda bothersome
my kid in school greeted me with yogurt all over his face
which also means he had been sitting there at the table for about an hour
annoying!
my wrist is still kinda hurting
and i feel like a cripple
cant use too much strength on it
had a disagreement with baby the day before and we havent made contact since
am still unhappy about not being able to spend his special day with him
whatever man
and i was supposed to go rock climbing today
shit

i used to think she's hot
or rather, she was hot
anyways, lovely lovely song
and its the first song she wrote
(:





Take my hand tonight
Let's not think about tomorrow
Take my hand tonight
We could find some place to go
Cause our hearts are locked forever
And our love will never die
Take my hand tonight
One last time

why do we have so many problems?
shouldnt it be just as simple as the story goes?
boy meets girl,
boy likes girl,
boy and girl gets together.
and yes, i really dont understand you
so help me out here
we havent really got the time to talk
with you always busying
sighs
and even if we meet, we never get around to the topics that really mattered
well, i never got around to them
i miss you so much too
i dont know
ive got the silly romantic love story stuck in my mind and its really not the same as yours
im sorry youre upset, babe

i dreamt of you on a monday night and on a tuesday morning.

i want my wrist to get betterrrrr.. like NOW
hurting like shit again
im supposed to go rock climbing this thursday
i doubt i'll be able to go
and if sunday doesnt rain, i should be going to play beach volley
but it doesnt seem the case when my wrist is like this
shit

where are you, baby?

these are the food that i was talking about at SAF yacht club
for today,
went to eat at the hand burger at raffles city today
the portion was kinda big
or thick rather
wasnt too bad
though i'll prolly think twice about going back again
i do wanna try the lychee mint crush man
next time probably
and dont get the warm sticky banana cake
i didnt fancy it
and the sides were overly sweet
just was a weird combination


the hand burger original


the tandoor chicken burger


warm sticky banana cake
and watched love happens
well, wasnt so much your typical romantic comedy
its more about loss and what you can do about it
oh wells
its a 2.5 stars for me
i overly stuffed nowwwwwww

baby, i miss you plenty plenty
gotten a gift thats not cheap
so you better like it!
(:

"Sometimes you have to put walls around you; not to keep people out, but to see who cares enough to break them down just to be with you."

i suppose this is a personal record?
12 mosquito bites in a day
damn
that was on friday
5 in the morning when we went to bollywood veggies
and the kid that i was holding on to had none
and than i had 7 in the night when yan, tobs and i went to SAF yacht club
potato wedges were nicely done
crispy but not burnt
and dont be deceived by the looks of the onion soup
its good
(:
i couldnt stop drinking it
hees
and price wasnt what i expected
it was 4 bucks for the soup and 3.50 for a big plate of wedges
i thought it'd be more seeing the location
anyways, will go back for more
just need to find transport
its damn bloody far

how can i tell her - lobo

She knows when I'm lonesome, she cries when I'm sad
She's up in the good times, she's down in the bad
Whenever I'm discouraged, she knows just what to do
But girl she doesn't know about you.

I can tell her my troubles, she makes them all seem right
I can make up excuses not to hold her at night
We can talk of tomorrow, I'll tell her things that I want to do
But girl how can I tell her about you.

How can I tell her about you
Girl please tell me what to do
Everything seems right whenever I'm with you
So girl won't you tell me how to tell her about you.

How can I tell her I don't miss her whenever I'm away
How can I say it's you I think of every single night and day
But when is it easy telling someone we're through
Ah girl help me tell her about you.

"Staying with someone you really love even if you know you two can't be together for a lot of reasons is like standing under the rain... It feels good but you know it will soon make you sick."

dont you remember?
in the past,
we used to talk for so many hours about the things that only we could understand.

a pigeon died in school today
my gosh
it flew in and knocked onto the fan
shit man
my lil denise was stunned and when i carried her up
she kept saying, "i not scared, i not scared."
but when i tried to put her down, she clinged on to me
talk about not being scared
ha!
and poor raphael was too dazed/shocked to do anything
sighs, i just walked away when i heard the loud bang of the pigeon knocking into the fan
cos i didnt know what the other teachers were looking/screaming at
didnt protect any of my kids
imma bad bad teacher am i?
):

ok, he doesnt really seem to speak singlish like normal singaporeans
but hey, he's kinda cute lah
and shan wee?
sorry buddy, you really cannot make it leh
rozz is THE ultimate singaporean lah
hahas!

baby bought me a watch
so sweet
(:

finished my 1ok great eastern run this morning
i never stink so much in my life
damn
my shorts were dripping sweat and i could squeeze sweat from it
ya, gross i know
and i have now ten swollen toes, six blisters (actually my blisters were from friday. hees) and four red toenails
and a very smart terrapin (ok, not relevant i know)
shant talk about the time i took
its embarrasing
*roars
anyways, back to my terrapin
i swear she knows the way back home
and when i mean home, its the toilet
she knows that she's not allowed in the kitchen so she hurries back to the toilet as soon as she spots us in the kitchen
im not making any of this up
A TERRAPIN for goodness sake!
she's so smartttttttttt
:D
and she never did turn her head in any other direction while making her way back to the toilet!