totally reads my mind.

ok, so i stopped being homesick two days ago. have plenty to typed about my trip and yan and i realised that ive only four days left in sydney! its that fast to going back home. the thing is that i dont seem to have enough days to eat all the good food here rather than to shop at different places. cos first of all, i dont fancy shopping. i only go shopping when i need a particular something, second of all, the stuff i can get here, i can get back home. and they pricer so whats the point? so eva has been being us (me) around and treating us (me) food. gosh, she actually helped me to save a lot on food. hees. and yan, well, she'd also treated me food here and there. but no, shes not working so im not gonna let her do that. that stubborn girl just REFUSED to let me return her money. grr! so while in sydney, the weather is almost as crazy as singapore. yesterday was 32 degrees and today's >24 degrees. like whattttt. i got sun burnt yesterday and i got frozen today. gosh. and i think i gained A LOT OF WEIGHT. gosh, eating and eating and eating. though we walked to many of the places (and i tell you, its not exactly very near) but my tummy is like ALWAYS ROUNDDDDD. CONSTANTLY ROUNDDDDD. ): ohwells. im still waiting for mom to come online. gosh, i wanna SLEEP ALREADY! ): so gonna get jet lag when im home. hopefully, the 8hours or so sleep on the flight back will help in de-jetlagging. yupps. goodnight sydney!

samantha is terribly homesick. she shouldnt be since she is having a holiday and she should be enjoying herself. she is missing home and her friends. she is stressed about the gifts she wants to bring back. but that shouldnt be the case. she should be sightseeing and taking plenty of pictures and dreading the end of the trip. but no, its exactly the opposite. she is counting down the days to home and dreading the 8hours flight.its not that she is not with good company, its just that she is so dependent on everyone around her. she never leaves facebook now that shes overseas and having a friend's iphone in her possession. she probably just doesnt know how to enjoy, just like she has difficulty appreciating expensive food compared to cheap hawker centre/fastfood. gosh, she is easy to maintain. ha! ohwells, she has really learnt the hard way. she does not want to tour again for so long unless its with family. she also feels terribly bad that she missed her dad's birthday and yuan xiao. FUCK. that is so going to be on her conscience. she thinks that the best thing she can do now is to buy stuffs home so that she can make her family happy. and so that she does not waste her money(time) here. she is going off to sleep now to dream of home. ):

im dying of hunger hereeeee. ): its local time 1208pm. no breakfast, no lunch.

i know how it feels. i know exactly how it feels to cry in the shower so that no one can hear you, to wait for everyone to fall asleep so that you can fall apart. for everything to hurt so bad you want it all to end. i know exactly how it feels.

You had me. You had me and then you left. It has nothing to do with me, it’s all about you. And it’s always been about you: what you need and what you want. You know, it seems like you only want me when you can’t have me. You like the chase and that’s all. So you know what? You can have it.
“
— The O.C.
(but why dont i feel happy still?)

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the circumstances drew the line, i was never his and he was never mine.

if something isnt happening for you, it doesnt mean that it is never going to happen. it just means you are not ready for it.
(oh really? :P)

i want to be free of you, the way you are, obviously, free of me.
(lalalallalals!)
http://qoute-book.tumblr.com

now now, watched black swan yesterday. i am typing this from sydney! hahas. anyways, the show was alright, you get the story, about a girl who struggles to survive in the ballet world. show was even a tad slow for me in the beginning. but hey, towards the end, the show's got you guessing and oh damn! natalie portman is wayyyyy AWESOME! i practically felt what she was feeling! that joy when she got the role f the swan queen, that frustration and desperation when she thought she was losing it. gosh, SHE IS GOOD! :D

i suddenly have craving for this but i cant eat. ):

when i get back (when youre free), b&j date k, babe?

Two of the hardest and most painful tests in life: having the patience to wait for the right moment, and mustering the courage to accept that you have waited for nothing.