i work best with inspirations. but sad to say, those are hard to come by.

i want a DSLR real badddddddddd. ):

ARISASASASASASASA, I SAW MY NAME ON YOUR BLOG :D

ok, so butterfatory it was, but disappointing too! they were playing major old school songs, shucks! anyways, luckily dam and ren were there to entertain us. and im damn pissed off cos my phone's micro sd card is missing! some drunk bitch knocked my phone to the ground (fuck, ive never even dropped it before) and the cover came out. so im guessing thats when my sd card dropped out too. shit. anyways, photos are on facebook. im too shagged to blog about this though ive plenty to type.

i wanna be taken care of too like a xmm maybe, instead of being the da jie jie that does the taking care of. ):

you'll never be portrayed the way you want to be viewed as. now life's as crappy as that.

I think sometimes you have to lose someone completely before you can figure out what they really mean to you.
Dawsons Creek (via kari-shma)

i would disagree. why cant we cherish all that matter, all that we care for? why do we have to lose before gaining? what if we lost and never got back? that would suck terribly wouldnt it?

Listen, can you hear it? The music. I can hear it everywhere. In the wind. In the air. In the light. Its all around us. All you have to do is open yourself up. All you have to do is listen.
August Rush

omgawdomgawdomgawdomgawdddd, i love this quote. and i wanted to copy it before (or i think i did) but anyways, i love this. im so gonna pick up drumming soon. anyone else wanna join? cello is on hold, too expensive to afford together with piano. unless, i get some sponsors? im musically inclined, so i need to make up for it. wee! (: i like telling people, you save for clothes, i save for music. its a skill to keep you company for life but clothes? they just dress you. besides, clothes maketh man? nahh, you can be dressed in pyjamas and still look good, cos if you dress with confidence, you dress to kill. (: (i can dress people, just not myself. so shuddup already. ive improved quite a bit.)

Meredith: I love you and I do want to marry you today, but there is no time.
Derek: Do you have a piece of paper?
Meredith: For what?
Derek: I want to be with you forever and you want to be with me forever, and in order to do that we need to make vows. A commitment, a contract. Give me a piece of paper.
Meredith: I don’t — I… I — I don’t. I have post-its!
[Meredith hands Derek the post-its and a pen, Derek sits down]
Derek: Okay. What do we want to promise each other?
Meredith: That you’ll love me… even when you hate me.
Derek: [writing] To love each other, even when we hate each other.
[Meredith sits down]
Derek: No running. Ever. Nobody walks out. No matter what happens.
Meredith: No running.
Derek: What else?
Meredith: That we’ll take care of each other, even when we’re old and smelly and senile. And if I get Alzheimer’s and forget you —
Derek: I will remind you who I am. Every day. [writing] To take care when old, senile, smelly. This… is forever. Sign.
Meredith: This is our wedding. A post-it?
Derek: Mhmm, if you sign it.
[Meredith takes the post-its and signs her name]
Meredith: Now what?
Derek: Now, I kiss the bride.
[Derek kisses Meredith]
Meredith: Married.
Derek: Married.
[Derek puts the post-it in Meredith’s cubby]
Derek: See that? Plenty of time.

Grey’s Anatomy; 5x24, Now or Never

NOW THIS IS ONE OF THE MANYMANYMANY REASON WHY I ABSOLUTELY ADORED GREY'S ANATOMYYYYYYY ♥,

if people arent sincere in asking others out again 'sometime' or 'next time' or whatever, then dont say so. cos its pretty idiotic to make them wait for that would be outing. and when i say them, i meant im one of them. cos im really a dumb fool to wait. so do my a favour, dont tell me, 'hey, lets meet up soon!' and while months down the road have no news at all. cos its not manners but plain rudeness now. i understand that we all have different schedule to accommodate but i believe if you really wanted to meet someone, you'll make time to do so.

cos my birthday's in january and you dont need to wait till june to make up for it.

I don’t know where I stand with you. I don’t know what I mean to you. All I know is every time I think of you, all I wanna do is be with you.
via eletheowl

i guess it applies to everyone. (:

But can I have you tomorrow?” I asked. She said,“You have me right now.
Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson

i wanna watch this, saw it at cathay today. its coming soon, like 24thjune. watch the trailer. im sososososoososossoosooo going to catch it. loves. (: http://www.letterstojuliet-movie.com/

anyways, now to my day out. well, i actully planned a day out at sentosa, but it failed cos there was only like 3 of us going. so it seemed a lil silly. after a long and annoying conference call, we decided to visit S.P.C.A and head to town after to pretend that we were rich people and 'shop' in the high end stores. so we had difficulty deciding the mode of transport as NONE OF US KNEW HOW TO GET THERE! well, i vaguely remembered taking bus 28 but lucky/unlucky for us, shiying managed to get a car and drove there. the cats and dogs were super cute. i especially liked one of the dog, but she was kinda hyper after that. will post her photo below. and there was this cat, which kept mewing for attention. aww.. and he was so excited to grab ryan's phone (cos he kept disturbing him with it) till he saw my camera strap. woah, was he jumpy after that. but well, he nearly put my cam to the floor so no no, no more playing, kitty. but i must say, if you ever wanna get a pet, head down to spca first cos the animals are really poor things. ):

ok, so after that it was town we went. shiying really wanna kill us today. not good day for driving but you'll not know why cos it'll stay among us only. hahas! nothing much to type about town, just that keat hwee kept pointing out gays to me. ohoh! and shiying and i visited our first sex shop. i was in for five seconds and i wanted out. eew! im innocent ok! and all those xxxxxxxxxx stuffs were polluting my mind. *pouts ryan and ren didnt even wanna leave lah, shiying and i were waiting outside for them with people looking at us as they walked by.

anyways, heres a photo of the adorable dog! (: the rest are on facebook, in a screwed up album.

arisaaaaa, as wrong as this sounds like, your post 185 was inspiring, if that is the right word to use. i dont know. we all need a place to escape to, escape from. and youre right, you dont need to physically leave somewhere to go elsewhere. just a change in mindset. life seems to open another door when one closes. seems like i found lost friends recently and also on the brink of losing some old ones. and that doesnt feel good. dont feel loved by them at all. ): but hey, you dont need to change. if they are true friends, they love you for who you are. just be comfortable in your own skin and stay true to what matters to you. but no, i'll tell you, i wont live my life for you cos i live for myself, and so should you. and im here whenever you need me. i know its tough not being an sms away but just drop an online note, and i'll definitely respond. to be honest, im grateful for finding you and shiying again, for the talks and nonsenses. (:

oh and i like this
but if we hold on to the past too tight, the future may never come.

my current squeeze (: theyre both from charles and keith though theyre are a little hard on the sides, but who cares. im just looking at them prettyyyyy
ART #CK1-60190071


or
ART #CK1-60050386
i wannaaaaa.

Missing someone isn’t about how long it’s been since you’ve seen them last or the amount of time since you’ve talked. It’s about that very moment when you’re doing something, and you wish that they were right there with you.
via samsings

Love yourself so no one has to. -Alex Gaskarth

You fall in love and it doesn’t work out, and you think that it’ll never happen again, but it does. Believe me, it does. In the strangest of places. -Dawson’s Creek
ohh, everyone says so. lets go to strange places then.

One Tree Hill
Haley: You love him right?
Booke: Like you don't even know.
Haley: Then don't wait. Life's too short to play games. If you love somebody and you wanna be with them, then go get them. Deal with the mess later. We don't know what tomorrow will bring.

I want things to be more than okay.

ok, im a tad bit lazy these days, so im stealing peoples quote to post here.

It’s better to be alone than have somebody who is half there or doesn’t want to be there.
via eletheowl

A guy out there was meant to be the love of your life, your best friend, your soul mate, the one you can tell your dreams to. He’ll brush the hair out of your eyes. Send you flowers when you least expect it. He’ll stare at you during the movies, even though he paid $8 to see it. He’ll call to say goodnight or just cause he is missing you. He’ll look in your eyes and tell you, you’re the most beautiful girl in the world, and for the first time in your life, you’ll believe it.
“— Nicholas Sparks

Janis Ian
When Angels Cry

Wait Your tired arms must rest
Let this moment pass
Wait until the morning
Close your eyes and you will see
Who you used to be
Left without a warning
Who knew one so big could grow so small
Lighter than the writing on the wall

When angels cry, can I stand by
When stones weep, can my heart sleep
Wish I'd never heard, wish I'd never heard
Wish I'd never heard
The power of a four letter word
'Cause only love will matter in the end

For a woman or a man
What's the difference now
Here we live with bottles
And needles and truth
Here is your living proof
That death cannot be proud
Some say it's a judgement on us all
I can't believe that God could be that small

When angels cry, can I stand by
When stones weep, can my heart sleep
Wish I'd never heard, wish I'd never heard
Wish I'd never heard

The power of a four letter word
If ever was a rose that longed to bloom
If ever was a heart that longed to fly
If ever was an angel, it was you
So close your eyes and say goodbye
Goodbye

When angels cry, I can't stand by
When stones weep, I can't sleep
Guess I've finally learned
Guess I've finally learned
Yes, I've finally learned
That love is just a four letter word
Hope is just a four letter word

today is swollen day. xi yun dropped cup on the corner of my toe, and it turned red and swelled. went downstairs to shoot hoops, after shooting the first two point, the ball hit my three fingers. i think i just dont have luck with basketball. ): now its swollen and twisted. *sobs it hurts to massage it even, and no one cares lahhhh. b would be massaging it for me now if he was here. hahas, dont misunderstand, hes still more than a friend but no longer on a romantic status.

Jason Castro - That's What I'm Here For

Goodbye Los Angeles, you said with some regret
I'll do my best to find a way to help you to forget
I'm glad you made your way back here to find a better day
Seems like you're getting a little closer to okay

And if you need someone just to be around
Help put the pieces back that you finally found
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for

I heard you saying that you're finally feeling free
Blowing kisses to the distant memories
Lately I've caught you smiling a little more
You're beautiful and I'm all yours

And if you need someone just to be around
Help put the pieces back that you finally found
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less or you want a little more
That's what I'm here for

That's why I can hold you just as long as you'll stay
I can tell you what no one would ever say
That it's alright to admit that you were wrong
Before you know it all the scars will be gone

That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for
When you need a little less or you want a little more
When you need someone to find you when you're hiding from it all
That's what I'm here for
That's what I'm here for

That's what I'm here for

Just because you were happy with him doesn’t mean you can’t be happy without him.

post 1000 to date. yay! we are just a brunch of screwed up people, but i still love yous.

When you meet the other half of your soul, you will understand why all the other lovers let you go. When you meet the one who deserves your heart, you’ll understand why things didn’t work out with everyone else.
sighs, when can i meet mineeeeeeeeeeee? im almost done waiting.

note to self: do 30 stomach crunches everyday before nap.
maybe i can get rid of that flabby thing which has taken residence on my tummy.

its just plain unhealthy. just is.

omgosh, jetstar is having this awesome promotion! second person get to travel for free! like no taxes or anything! *roars i want want want to travelllllllllll. ): http://www.jetstar.com/sg/en/cheap-flights/jq6bday.aspx?utm_source=website&utm_medium=banner&utm_campaign=takeafrenforfree_sale_20100503

Dread has become fact. Innocence has turned into guilt, and hope is a word that rhymes with despair.
Paul Auster, Invisible (via rorrimehtni) i cant agree more with this.

today was not a good day to swim, well, not the weather, but i wasnt in top form. i barely swam 11laps. sighs. i knew i wouldnt be swimming much but i didnt expect to swim so little! so unhappy with myself. ): today is a bad bad day to swim.

ok, it was a busy busy week. ive to complete portfolio, arrange for three excursions for school, rens birthday celebration, date with ifa. well, it was kinda crazy. ren was so surprised when he saw us. am glad to see that face (: and dinner wasnt too expensive too. yay!

and date with ifa was just ho-hums. not the company of course, ifa was fun to hang out with. but the club and event.. *roars! ok, i went for radio913 mustdrinkfriday but i wasnt told that the event was only from 8-10pm! which means the free housepours were only till 10pm! and we reached there at 1030pm. thanks. -_- luckily, we got free entry, just we had to spend $20 for two glasses of vodka red bull. but one good thing was that the guys there dont grind people they dont know. so there was this group of guys that were dancing besides us the whole night, cos we were under the aircon and they wanted the aircon too. the club was freaking hot! but anyways, they introduced themselves to us and ask politely if they could join us. then came the surprise - they thought we were 19, we thought that they were older than us, but heyheyhey, they're 20. LOLS. but they were nice lah, apologising when they bumped into us. the crowd wasnt too bad, and there was a kinda cute bartender too. just that some crazy drunk bitch heel-ed my toe. crap. oh, and the ang mohs should just return to their country. they got freaking drunk and go around the club pushing and shoving people. like wtf? ok, im talking so much about this cos its still fresh in my mind. ohoh! and we passed a road block on the way home. IVE NEVER BEEN IN A ROAD BLOCK!

anyways, i WILL take up cello, just a matter of when. composers history are so interesting, just the reading is boring but when simon discussed with us about it today, i can really feel the connection with them. you get to know the composers, you get to understand the music better and can play it better. i need to have more confidence in my playing so that i wont get nervous and my hands wont tremble and sweat. ohwells.

"When one door of happiness closes, another opens; but often we look so long at the closed door that we do not see the one which has been opened for us." love this quote. (: