I'm fine. I just break sometimes. Just understand that if I break, I'm breaking for you.
23/04/2010 pleasefindthis.blogspot.com

i swam 20laps today, 12 of em continously. wee! ok, its not that big a deal but hey, i broke my previous 'record'. my head felt like it was on fire after the 12laps though and had a major headache. could be my goggles was too tight. *roars anyways, i did realised that i needed up to 8laps (with breaks in between of course) to warm up before i could swim continously for a longer period. its like the more i swam the less tired i was but the neck was a different story. achyyyyyy. and whats the point of swimming when i pile on junk lunch after that?! always seems the case after i hit the gym or swimming. junction8 us a evil place. they should sell healthy food to people who exercise at the sports complex lah!

pretty! (:

she seems to be itching to be scratched. and im itching to do so.

and i need a dogg.

im sorry but im cant remember who to credits to! oops.

i super like this one!

A wise girl kisses but doesn’t love, listens but doesn’t believe, and leaves before she is left
Marilyn Monroe (via ldoyouknow)

i guess we are all foolish women at one point or another

heres a new blog that i stumbled upon, and ive posted some of the posts. i think its really lovely to combine pictures that say so much with lyrics that shout out to you.






http://followthatway.tumblr.com/

let's try to do one everyday, maybe it'd make today a better day. (:

i think im trying to kill my hamster. well, not intentionally but i keep forgetting to change their sawdust and when i fed them in the week. memory's failing me. crap. im not that old. im sorry hamsters. i sound like im evil. damn! but! i fed them a lil just now. and i really really did intended to change them today, but it slipped my mind. ):

i wanna eat tao huey now. had this thought - if i were to be living by myself, with licence and a car, i'd be out eating tao huey now (that's if i can find one stall opened at this time) *ROARS im just having too much weird cravings these days, wonder how i'd be when im pregnant man. but one thing's for sure, i wont be forcing my husband to be them at unreasonable hours, probably just become extremely cranky. hahas!

i seemed to have lost my spark, my goal in life. i cant seem to find interest in anything and im getting sick of work. i used to tell everyone who asked, i like my job and whats better than not needing to drag to work? but i dont know, these days seem to past too slowly for me. i cant seem to find someone i can talk to. people are either too busy or i feel that they simply dont bother, so why waste my time and effort to talk to them? i cant stand it when they dont bother. fuck. and my yuyans in aussieland, b's out of the question, and cherrys boss. it just doesnt seem right and comfortable talking to her anymore. and i do know im not doing a good job at work, but i need some sort of a jolt. something that will remind me of the passion in choosing this. i dont fancy the curriculum but im not doing anything about it. i should be doing something about but im not. im just a lousy ass teacher. shit.

its just an additional c, if you can figure it out.

If you can’t handle me at my worst, you sure as hell don’t deserve me at my best.
Marylin Monroe ooh, i like this. its fierce. (:

I’m sick of following my dreams. I’m just going to ask them where they’re goin’, and hook up with them later.
Mitch Hedberg i like it~

Ah, women. They make the highs higher and the lows more frequent.
Friedrich Nietzsche (via elicec) ah, yes. (:

You may not be her first, her last, or her only. She loved before she may love again. But if she loves you now, what else matters? She’s not perfect - you aren’t either, and the two of you may never be perfect together but if she can make you laugh, cause you to think twice, and admit to being human and making mistakes, hold onto her and give her the most you can. She may not be thinking about you every second of the day, but she will give you a part of her that she knows you can break - her heart. So don’t hurt her, don’t change her, don’t analyze and don’t expect more than she can give. Smile when she makes you happy, let her know when she makes you mad, and miss her when she’s not there.
Bob Marley | Submitted by: themeanderingbs

but what happens when that isnt enough?

ive been tired lately. i cherish sleep so much now and i have a really hard time getting outta bed. i wasnt like this before, i could wake up exactly when the alarm rang but these days, i'd tell myself "five more minutes.." i needdddd more sleep. sighs.

i need a new hobby. diving is too expensive and difficult to plan. SWIMMING! YES! i should go swimming every sunday, running every friday. that way, i can tone up and slim down. the flabber around my waist is getting too thick. b doesnt mind it, but hes not mine anymore and i shouldnt be living my life for him (still). i wanna pick up cello, cant wait to finish my piano diploma to start cello. but then again, i think i should pick up cello now, so that it can aid in my grade 6 orchestra instruments. sighs. oh wells. my school's getting a grand piano. omgosh. im so excitedddd but i dont think i'll play on it. i might spoil it or something. hees.

im missing ethel already, she's my baby in school. shes independent, cute, and smart. she picks up concepts really quick and is a real bossy kid. hahas! but i love herrrrrrr. :D she'd climb onto my lap and calls me 'tam' all the time. my babyyyyyy. (:

We are never deceived; we deceive ourselves. Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe (via solarelephant)

Parachute

I don't tell anyone about the way you hold my hand
I don't tell anyone about the things that we have planned
I won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to push me down
They want to see you fall

Won't tell anybody how you turn my world around
I won't tell anyone how your voice is my favourite sound
Won't tell anybody
Won't tell anybody
They want to see us fall
They want to see us fall

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

Don't believe the things you tell yourself so late night and
You are your own worst enemy
You'll never win the fight
Just hold onto me
I'll hold onto you
It's you and me up against the world
It's you and me

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you

I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I won't fall out of,
I won't fall out of love
I'll fall into you

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

I don't need a parachute
Baby, if I've got you
Baby, if I've got you
I don't need a parachute
You're gonna catch me
You're gonna catch if I fall
Down, down, down

ok, hes just way cute. :P

via: notebookdoodles

i decided to leave my blog unprivatised, cos i dont think it really matters. whatever. medicine isnt making me better. its making my stomach empty even though im freaking full. and i thought i could lose weight during this time, but it doesnt seem the case.

visited adex at suntec today. well, not what i expected it to be. but uncle simon's booth seemed to be the only one bustling with life. yay. (: alrights, ive the buddy to dive with, ive the money saved. the only thing left is to confirm, buy the air tickets, and get past my parents. sigh. i really wanted to go with you, think it'd be a nice experience. but you werent interested so what can i say? almost puked on the bus back. damn bus driver. if i were to puke, its your duty to clean the bus of my vomit isnt it? so can you just drive properly and stop jerking for no rhyme or reason? gosh!

been having weird dreams these days too. maybe its because HQ's coming down for audit checks tomorrow. i dont like being watched by people. i get very conscious of myself. wonder if i can get daddy to drive me to work.

another reason why i love grey's anatomy - i can totally relate to what/how she feels. i love their quotes - witty and quirky but really makes sense to me. "i love you, in a really, really big pretend to like you taste in music, let you eat the last piece of cheesecake, hold a radio over my head outside your window, unfortunate way that makes me hate you, love you. **so pick me. choose me. love me.
**my most most mostest favouritest part (:

cant understand why the hungriness these days. isnt being sick supposed to be losing appetite? but im having cravings for french fries, burger, ice cream and all the food that i cannot eat. this is real upsetting. *pouts and for the last time, im NOT pregnant.


There's so many times I've let you down
So many times I've played around,
I tell you now they don't mean a thing.
Ev'ry place I go I'll think of you,
Ev'ry song I sing I'll sing for you,
When I come back I'll bring your wedding ring.


(via raindropsonredroses)

Dearest, do you know how much in love with you I am? Did I trip? Did I stumble - lose my balance, graze my knee, graze my heart? I know I’m in love when I see you. I know when I long to see you, I’m on fire. Not a muscle has moved. Leaves hang unruffled by any breeze. The air is still. I have fallen in love without taking a step. You are all wrong for me and I know it, but I can no longer care for my thoughts unless they are thoughts of you. When I am close to you, I feel your hair brush my cheek when it does not. I look away from you sometimes, then I look back. When I tie my shoes, when I peel an orange, when I drive my car, when I lie down each night without you, I remain… Yours…”
artpixie:-The Love Letter (1999)

You are Purple Tiger, who is always cheerful and active.

You are well-liked by every one.
You give an impression of a girl with pure heart.
You are kind and generous to everyone around you.
You are rather optimistic, but may experience unsettlement by physical effect.
You are good at taking care of the others and can be friend with anybody.
Your relationship tends to be associating closely with small number of people, and that number increases eventually.

The way you express things may be too flashy and exaggerated.
You tend to have too self-conscious side.

But you are a hard working person who act and move in your own pace surely and consistently.
Your observation and ways of thinking is calm and objective.
You don't get influenced by emotions and atmosphere.
You are calculative enough to measure the distance between yourself and the other person.
You also possess your own ideal world, and trying to accomplish it too hastily may lead to misunderstandings.
Nevertheless, the way you pursue your potentiality gives a favorable impression to others.

Once married, you will show great motherly feelings.
You will create a living style that takes in account your personal interests.

http://world.doubutsu-uranai.com/
my favourite so far. (:

i just think that this is pretty.\

i cant remember what i did on friday afternoon. i remember the evening and night but not the day. why? gosh, im really getting old. hmms, i used to think that going to the movies was a waste of time and money. its like, if i wanted to watch a show, i'd rather wait for the vcd/dvd to come out and i'll watch it with my family. its not that i dont like that anymore, its just that i kinda learn to enjoy watching it in the cinema. guess as we grow, we learn to accept things we didnt before. with age, comes experience. now why am i saying this? COS I WANNA WATCH A DOZEN OF MOVIESSSSSSS! ok, thats really a sign im getting old - im being naggy, crap.
i like stalking pretty people. oops!

helipad suck big time!
eew!
terrible music
no one was there even at 1130pm
just
*roars
good thing it was free entry
so we hopped over to rebel instead
wasnt exactly good
cos every two songs played, theres one with 'put your hands in the air/up'
annoying
and the guys there were so ungentlemen
they kept pushing us girls!
what the hell man!
so i pushed this guy back
he literally gave us his elbow
i shoved him back
what can he do man?
punch me?
im a girl, hes a guy
either way, he loses
a bunch of losers
butterfactory is still the best!
(: