I don't feel alright in spite of these comforting sounds you make. I don't feel alright because you make promises that you break.

You read through the sad love quotes and there’s always one person on your mind that probably shouldn’t be there. Don’t let the sadness of your past and the fear of your future ruin the happiness of your present.
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sam is burnt and looks like a cooked lobster naooooo.

ok, i think im nuts
but i think mitzy is HOT
she's like muscular to the right extend and she's petite
but lanky
eh, ok
nevermind if you didnt understand that
and she's got personality
plus, she looks good too
gosh i sound like a lesbian

maybe im crazy, crazy over nothing

Pixie Lott - Cry Me Out

I got your emails
You just don’t get females
Now, do you?
What’s in my heart
Is not in your head
Anyway..

Mate, you’re too late
And your weren’t worth the wait
Now, were you?
It’s out of my hands
Since you blew your last chance
When you played me

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that
Baby, there’s no way back
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

When I found out
How you messed me about
I was broken (heartbroken)
Back then I believed you
Now, I don’t need you
No more

The pic on your phone
Proves you weren’t alone
She was with you, yeah
Now, I couldn’t care
About who, what or where
We’re through

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that
Baby, there’s no way back
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

Gonna have to cry me out
Gonna have to cry me out
Boy, there ain’t no doubt
Gonna have to cry me out

Won’t hurt a little bit
Boy, better get used to it
You can keep talking
But baby, I’m walking away

Listen, I got the emails
I got the text
The answer’s still the same
It’s the way it is
I got to go

You’ll have to cry me out
You’ll have to cry me out
The tears that'll fall
Mean nothing at all
It’s time to get over yourself

Baby, you ain’t all that
Baby, there’s no way back
You can keep talking
Baby, I’m walking away


You can try your hardest - you can do everything within your means but sometimes people just aren't worth it anymore. They aren't worth all the tears and worrying, and it's important to know when to let go of someone who only brings you down.
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you still owe me dates and presents
i wanna watch dear john
amongst many other movies this season
gosh
but im broke

you can always say sorry,
but the real apology is when you hear
the sadness in his voice and see the look in his eyes.
And you realize that he has hurt himself just as much.

we are all sorry, arent we?

hmms, i cant describe what im feeling now
dont feel like talking about diving
dont feel like planning for diving
i was super excited just two days ago regarding the dive/trip
but now..
and i dont wanna talk to you even though you called
mom's objecting to dive
shiying's kinda troubled by it cos of her personal reasons
trip's not going to be as planned
july's trip may not be on
money problems
worried, stressed
what's it going to take to lift my spirits?
spent too much time planning about dive, thinking about it
its taking away my interest it in
hopefully i get to see sharks
maybe that'll cheer me up
sighs
i thought talking to you will help
but no, it didnt
and i didnt even feel like talking to you
maybe part of the reason was that i didnt need to let out to you anymore
didnt need your advice
didnt need your comfort
you still hold a huge piece of my heart
(and i think you'll always do)
but im starting to stand on my own two feet again
not depending on you for support
and you're back to being you
thats the way it should be
its for the best

i hate my fringe

You’ve got to risk love. It doesn’t mean that you’re never going to get hurt but the pain you feel will never compare to the regret that comes from walking away from love.
— Ghosts of Girlfriends Past

If you are going to fall in love with me, it’s only fair that you know what you are falling in love with.

You are falling in love with my insecurities, and my obsession with trying to figure out what everyone thinks of me. You are falling in love with my immaturity, my constant need to feel loved and appreciated, my overactive tear ducts, my internet obsession, my tendency to be too clingy. You fall in love with my troubled past, and my hopes and dreams, and how I’m a hopeless romantic at heart. If you fall in love with me, you fall in love with my self-hate and all my imperfections and my perception that nobody could ever love me.

But, you are also falling in love with the way my eyes will smile when I’m with you, the way I’ll text you in the mornings just telling you I hope you have a great day. You’re falling in love with the occasionally humorous and/or thought-provoking things I say, and the way I blush when people ask me about you. But to me, the most important thing will be that you are falling in love with me, despite my thinking that it is impossible.


im falling short of words of my own
whats the point really?


I’m scared to get too close to people. Whether they’re friends or whatever. It seems that every time I get close to someone, they always have to go away. Maybe it’s to teach me how life goes on and how I shouldn’t depend on people. Or maybe, I just trust the wrong people.

There’s someone in her past that she hasn’t gotten over yet. Each day is like the last and she misses what she can’t forget. It’s just an empty space where something used to be. Now she guards the gate, but she’s lost the key. No one enters, but no one leaves.

But what bothers her the most is when someone walks into her life knowing they won't stay.

Anyone can make you smile or cry, but it takes someone special to make you smile when you already have tears in your eyes. (gosh, you did that. you did.)
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I really enjoy spending time with you, even if we’re just going to be sitting around and talking about nothing. There are a million things I love about you, like your nose or the way you smile, the way you look me in the eye, too. And I just get the greatest feeling when I make you laugh. I feel as if my company makes you happy, and that’s what I wish for you. For you to be happy. And when I see you laugh at my clumsy ways, it just makes me want to spend the rest of my life with you so I can see a smile on your face.

The truth is, I don’t hate you. I can never hate you. I guess I just want to find reasons not to like you, to make you seem like a horrible person. So I can just be mad at you and forget about you. Because honestly, it would just make all this so much easier.

just random stuffs that i stole from tabs blog
i cant type so much stuffs
everytime i sit in front of the computer, full of thoughts that i wanna put down in writing
i just blank out the minutes i lay my fingers on the keyboard
and i have tons of things i wanna type out when im on the bed trying my best to sleep
darn it

I tried to move on. I really did. I tried to tell myself that you don’t want me and I can’t have you anymore. I tried so hard, but how can you let go of the only person who makes you happy? The only person who makes you feel alive? The only reason you’re still here? You just can’t let go of someone like that.

now thats just ________(fill in the blank)
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im so getting a phone like this for my future home
(:

so mahjong at arisa's house on monday
i lost all my chips
*roars
and i was just telling ryan to throw a tile that allows all three of us to game
guess what?
i was the one that did just that
so dad's been playing mahjong for so long and he hasnt seen anything like that before
arghhs!
just tough tough luck for this chinese new year
oh wells
hopefully i'll be luckier for the rest of the year
cant wait to phuket!
mom's still pissed and worried
i wish she wouldnt
so i wont be worried about her being worried and spoil my mood
):
i still wanna go bali in july
but who can go with me?
this is so irritating!

People say that walking away is the hardest thing to do, but it isn't. Staying, even when you know it will break your heart is the toughest. Staying right where you are, waiting for your heart to be ripped apart is much harder than walking away and starting anew.

you just get immune that's all.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR TO ONE AND ALL
AND HAPPY HOLIDAYS TOO!
somehow, as you get older, you get tired of birthdays, christmases, chinese new year and all festivals
well, thats what i feel
cos its like no difference, they are just days
and everyday is a valentine as long as you are with the one you love (and of cos love you)

i used to care too much before and it tired me out
so i really dont care much now but it doesnt feel good at times
especially when then not caring hurt the ones close to my heart
and that sucks



cant i be that missing piece of your puzzle?

its shitty day today!
gosh
E wasnt well so he puked twice
had to clean him up
so my other kids had to wait cos i hadnt given them work to do!
while i was cleaning E, L shitted on his pants in the dinning area
AND HE DIDNT EVEN TELL ME!
gosh
so he joy well waited while i cleaned E up
so i carried him to the toilet after that
L's pants was literally full of shit!
but i cant throw it away cos its school pants
its like ten bucks!
i threw his underwear away though
grossed out
while hosing L down, E vomitted AGAIN!
like what the hell man?!
so i screamed for cherry
its not like i can split myself cos L still had shit on him and he was naked
btw, both of them are the heavy weights in my class
(MABYE THATS WHY MY NECK IS FEELING LIKE DETACHED FROM MY HEAD NOW!)
ok, im just like typing in point form cos im really lazy to repeat everything since i told j just now
crap, this feels like an observation cos of all the initials
AND PHUKET HERE I COMEEEEEEEEEEEE!
:DDDDDDDDDD

ho-hums
i hate it when everyone's busy busy busy
bleah!
i need human contactttt!
*roars

I guess you're right; I'm afraid. I'm afraid to put my guard down. I'm afraid that if you know who I am, you won't feel the same. And I'm afraid that once my barrier is defeated and I'm comfortable, you'll walk away.
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so one of my blur parents went home without the kid's bag today
she lived the next block so i brought it home for her
kinda weird seeing that i had my bag on my back
and a thomas the train bag in front of me
ha!
she was kinda embarrassed that she bought ice-cream for me
was very very happyyyy
didnt expect anything in return
wasnt the ice-cream that made me that happy though,
it was the thought
(:
and another thing made me smile too
was buying dinner and there was this cute air force guy behind me!
weee!
and he doesnt take vinegar too
whahahahas!
but that was just now
nothing compares to the actions you do/dont do that make me happy/unhappy
currently unhappy
am quite worked up but the thing is I DONT KNOW WHYYYY!

I know that each and every one of you has felt at one point, like you couldn’t go on. But then you found hope. There’s always some way to find hope. Remember that.
“— Nick Jonas

the thing is that every time ive hope, he takes it away.

honestly, i dont have the mood for anything now
just wanna watch the final destination
cos life is just that bad to only want that now

my baby girl turned three today
her daddy was here today for the celebration at school
when he left, she cried real bad
its just heart breaking to hear her cry
its different when you know its tantrums
that, i'll ignore
but today was different
anyways, she stopped
so later when i was in her class
she smiled at me, and came over
sat on my lap and hugged me
yupps, she hugged me
its just heart warming
sooo sweetttt
:D
i love my baby girl
shes my snow white!



gosh. thats all i can say about this video
touching

and i think we look really cute together

i like reading people's blogs
their good command of english
and what happened in their life
just as much as i love to people watch
how they behave
and how they talk
just a random note


today was a busy busy day
i went mad
literally
i think cherry really isnt too well
so much so that she cant be bothered to shut me up
i know im shouting
but i didnt really cared
we were two people short today
tea was just a mess
J cried non stop the minute the lights were switched on after nap
A took his own sweet time to pack his mattress cover that i threw his bag out
he was the first to start keeping and yet,
when EVERYONE had finished keeping their mattresses,
he was still there, staring blankly
i told him i gave him till the count of five to pack it in (all he had to do was to stuff it in!)
but he didnt bother
so there went his bag
of course, he cried
E spilled the WHOLE CUP OF MILK
teachers rushing to keep mattresses,
serve food,
get J to stop crying
then, J pee-ed
shit, now what?
L spilled milk on himself AGAIN and was crying too
i guess i did all the screaming for the teachers
sheesh!
seriously, i think i take it too hard
shit
i suck at being a teacher
double shit
oh, and J vomitted after i cleared him up
cos of too much crying
what a fantastic day
then i realised, i missed you

so the cute daddy at my school smiled at me today
omgawd
he's like super cute can?
wahahahahs!
cos his daughter's teacher left the communication book out
and he came back to get it
but he's getting a little more haggard everyday i think
more wrinkles
and not that cute
but still enough to look at
lols!
he reminds me of nigel and his big toothy grin though

so theyre best friends but they look like couples
ha!
but i think its a really sweet picture
(:

And finally, guys wish to be her first love while girls wish to be his last.

20 things girls want guys to know
(i think ive post this before. but, what the heck?)

1. we love when you cuddle with us
2. a kiss on the cheek is a definite yes
3. we want you to put your arm around us at the movies
4. we dont care if you are the strongest guy in the world
5. size doesnt matter so dont tell us
6. we dont always look our best so get over it
7. we shouldnt have to plan everything
8. we're always ready to talk so call us
9. we're not perfect so deal with it
10. we love surprises
11. the little things you do mean the most
12. we're not always girly girls
13. we can like boy stuffs too
14. cursing and swearing dont impress us
15. dont be mean to us to get our attention
16. dont tell us who is hot because we dont care
17. we can tell when you're not listening so listen up
18. when we say we are cold, thats out invitation to come closer
19. hugs mean more sometimes
20. we need your advice sometimes so dont be afraid to give it to us.


so true! :D

There isn’t a day that goes by where I don’t, at some point, think of you. Or, some kind of memory we once shared. It’s like I look at a certain thing, hear a certain song or even eat a certain food, and suddenly I am reminded of you, the times we shared, the conversations we had, and the best friend you used to be.

I want to be hard for you to forget. I want to have that kind of impact on you where you know you’ll never find anyone who can take my place, and I want that because that’s what you are to me. I want it to hurt like hell when you see me. I want you to feel what you put me through.

i used to want this but no onger cos it hurts me when youre unhapppy.

isnt this pretty?
i wanntttttttt
the heel is like 5inches
i'll be 182cm when i wear this
damn




You gradually get over the pain. It doesn’t go away, not for a long time, but it becomes easier to live with. One morning you wake up and he’s not the first thing on your mind. And then a few months down the line you realize you’ve made it through half the day without thinking of him. Sometimes it takes months, sometimes, years, but eventually you reach a point when you only think about them occassionally. You manage to do this because you don’t see them, you don’t hear about them, you try not to think about them. And then you bump into them walking down the street, or someone unexpected mentions their name … and the memories come flooding back.