yunshan*//
complain, complain, complain. now who wants to listen?

i never wanna grow up
where the innocence is lost; where troubles complicate by tenfolds

I wish i was a little kid again. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to clean up my messes and remind me what’s right from wrong. I want to be awed at, even if what I’m doing isn’t that cute. I want to be yelled at before i make the same mistakes again and I want to be held in someone else’s arms while I cry my heart out. I REALLY DO, NEVER WANNA GROW UP.

blogger's pissing me off already
its a mistake is it?
i dont know
sighs
i wanted to blog about something but ive forgotten
recently i feel so dead
like nothing interest me
cant be bothered to think
and ive found out that when im busy at work and the busying actually produces something
im happy
ha!
then when it comes to nothing to do
i brood
and brooding aint good
depresses you
oh wells
anyone wanna ask me out?
im a lil tired of asking people out and planning where to go, what to do



We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love
It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

blogger's still screwed
people say dont think of the what ifs
cos they will never happen
but i cant help it
wouldnt it be lovely?


cos then we wont have to hide.

i cant remember the quote that he asked me to put here
so heres the one that he quoted
"Happiness will never come to those who fail to appreciate what they already have."
this simply means to be content with what you have isnt it?
well, im pretty good at doing that
serious.
and no, im still not an in depth person
yes, superficial
i know, i know
i just like this song
what! i like being random ok
dont know why though
hahas!


photos please.

its cold and its dark
im alone
voided of emotions
will you keep me warm tonight?



our paths were meant to cross in all the wrong ways

im nua-ed
from cable skiing
seriously, ive never felt so sore in my life
my hands are still trembling
cable skiing was fun!
im so going to try it again
probably wakeboarding next time?
i feel like im a water baby
swimming, diving, cable skiing, wakeboarding
i adore em
ha!
anyways, photos are one facebook
im too lazy, not to mention achey to upload here too


its impossible
i'll carry on
and its blue too

dum dum dum
im so darn bored
but bloody excited bout tomorrow and the day after
still a lil disappointed with the darn dresses
who says being tall is good?
never thought that way
always seated at the back of the class,
HATE SITTING AT THE BACK
cant seeeeee
cant get dresses of the right lenght,
tops are either too short or too long
shit
anyways, tried teasing my kids today
cos sometimes i play the piano at school
and some of my kids go to yamaha
so i thought, "why not? lets hear you play."
and i ended up getting a splinter embed in my flesh
not the superficial kind where you just have to pull it out from under the skin
but seriously, it was STUCK
teacher cherry had to cut and prick and poke and pull the darn thing out
and i was screaming like mad in the office
luckily i wasnt heard by anyone except auntie in the kitchen
that shows how noisy the kids are
ha!
im no longer teaching nursery
the kids are asking why and telling their parents that they prefer me
i miss them too
sighs
i feel like vomitting now
and bloggers screwed up

i think everyone's felt this way before?


Colbie Caillat
Fallin' For You

I don't know but
I think I maybe
Fallin' for you
Dropping so quickly
Maybe I should
Keep this to myself
Waiting 'til I
Know you better

I am trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

As I'm standing here
And you hold my hand
Pull me towards you
And we start to dance
All around us
I see nobody
Here in silence
It's just you and me

I'm trying
Not to tell you
But I want to
I'm scared of what you'll say
So I'm hiding what I'm feeling
But I'm tired of
Holding this inside my head

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you

Oh I just can't take it
My heart is racing
The emotions keep spinning out

I've been spending all my time
Just thinking about ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I've been waiting all my life
And now I found ya
I don't know what to do
I think I'm fallin' for you
I'm fallin' for you
I think I'm fallin' for you

I can't stop thinking about it
I want you all around me
And now I just can't hide it
I think I'm fallin' for you (x2)

I'm fallin' for you

Ooohhh
Oh no no
Oooooohhh
Oh I'm fallin' for ya

oh crap, ive said the wrong thing havent i?

omgawd

had a blast today

we played the drums thingy at iluma's arcade

so much funnnnnnnnn

weeeeeeee

and there was this expert

my gosh

i could hardly see what he was hitting and he was able to hit almost everything

all i can see were stars and more stars

cherry and my scores combined were only half of his

added that our scores was after 4 songs and was compared to his 1 song

damn

and goon goon boyfriend aka uncle nick

pushed on a door that said pull

and i was behind him telling him, "pull, Pull, PULL!"

it was so funny

and he made me cry lah

well from laughter that is

laughing at the way he described teacher cherry's retarded behaviour

sighs, the only thing that dampened the mood was that i had four blisters on my foot

two on each side

imagine limping on the right foot,

now imagine limping on the left,

now combine the limping

that was how i walked from 4pm to 11pm

hurts like RTY35wg45Y^&H$%Wfche54u*E$&YFCA!

uncle nick said i looked like a penguin

hahas

wish you were there too

cant wait for my new dress to come!

:D

ha! lame.

no;

stop, slow down alright?

damn!

hmms, ive been told im not feminine enough
but hey, ive been boyish, rough since i was young
i like being a tomboy
so?
i think you like it too

:D

and then there was the sigh
i dont know if was a sigh of relief or disappointment
sighs

"because i might not always have you but i'll have the feeling of you for the rest of my life."

heard about this on one of the tvb shows
thought it was kinda interesting

The triangular theory of love is a theory of love developed by psychologist Robert Sternberg. The theory characterizes love within the context of interpersonal relationships by three different components:

1.Intimacy – Which encompasses feelings of closeness, connectedness, and bondedness.
2.Passion – Which encompasses drives that lead to romance, physical attraction, and sexual consummation.
3.Commitment – Which encompasses, in the short term, the decision to remain with another, and in the long term, the shared achievements and plans made with that other.

The “amount” of love one experiences depends on the absolute strength of these three components; the “type” of love one experiences depends on their strengths relative to each other. Different stages and types of love can be explained as different combinations of these three elements; for example, the relative emphasis of each component changes over time as an adult romantic relationship develops. A relationship based on a single element is less likely to survive than one based on two or three elements.


Nonlove is the absence of all three of Sternberg's components of love.

Liking/friendship in this case is not used in a trivial sense. Sternberg says that this intimate liking characterizes true friendships, in which a person feels a bondedness, a warmth, and a closeness with another but not intense passion or long-term commitment.

Infatuated love is pure passion. Romantic relationships often start out as infatuated love and become romantic love as intimacy develops over time. However, without developing intimacy or commitment, infatuated love may disappear suddenly.

Empty love is characterized by commitment without intimacy or passion. Sometimes, a stronger love deteriorates into empty love. In cultures in which arranged marriages are common, relationships often begin as empty love and develop into one of the other forms with the passing of time.[citation needed]

Romantic love bonds individuals emotionally through intimacy and physically through passionate arousal.

Companionate love is an intimate, non-passionate type of love that is stronger than friendship because of the element of long-term commitment. Sexual desire is not an element of companionate love. This type of love is often found in marriages in which the passion has gone out of the relationship but a deep affection and commitment remain. The love ideally shared between family members is a form of companionate love, as is the love between close friends who have a platonic but strong friendship.

Fatuous love can be exemplified by a whirlwind courtship and marriage in which a commitment is motivated largely by passion without the stabilizing influence of intimacy. A relationship, however, whereby an individual party agrees to sexual favors purely out of committment issues, or is pressured/forced into sexual acts does not comprise Fatuous love, and instead tends more to Empty love.

Consummate love is the complete form of love, representing an ideal relationship toward which people strive. Of the seven varieties of love, consummate love is theorized to be that love associated with the “perfect couple”. According to Sternberg, such couples will continue to have great sex fifteen years or more into the relationship, they can not imagine themselves happy over the long-term with anyone else, they overcome their few difficulties gracefully, and each delight in the relationship with one other.[1] However, Sternberg cautions that maintaining a consummate love may be even harder than achieving it. He stresses the importance of translating the components of love into action. "Without expression," he warns, "even the greatest of loves can die" (1987, p.341). Thus, consummate love may not be permanent. If passion is lost over time, it may change into companionate love.

i must say today is an eventful day

well, but ive been having insomnia lately again

due to stress i suppose

sighs

and it was exceptionally bad last night

i climbed into bed at about 11pm and tossed and turned till about 1am!

two whole hours on the bed, not sleeping

!!!

how would i know that it was near 1am when i slept?

well, cos the last thing i remembered was sis switching off the lights

and she went to bed at about 1am

and i woke up FIVE MINUTES before 630am

yes i intended to wake at 630am

to clean up a part of the beach at east coast park

:D

im proud of us rach

ha!

we volunteered

and no, no cip hours

as we didnt not need them

duh!

i was so tired after that that i slept in the bus and that rarely happens

i cant sleep in public places, no no

and oh, i misplaced my ezlink

and only realised it after i stepped onto the bus

):

so i had to walked all the way back home (i meant from my house bus stop)

to get ezlink from my sis

and i was already having blisters

anyways, back to cleaning up the beach

rach found all the 'interesting' stuffs

she found three toys, a dollar coin and A TAMPON!!!

omgawd

just lost all my appetite for lunch on the spot

thanks rach for accompanying me

:D

suppose to meet bee after that but well..

its complicated

sighs

and i had picnic with arisa and shiying!

all the way to hort park

and arisa had this cool theory

believe what they say but dont believe in christianity

i like it~

so ask and you'll receive?

guess so since i asked for bus 195 to come and it did

i asked (well, demanded actually. hahas!) for the drizzle to stop and it did!

and we cam whored like a zillion pictures lah

ok, not that many

but you'll see when arisa uploads them

meanwhile take a look at some photos that i have in my camera first



gosh, they found a tyre!




ok, this is lame. haahs!

i am constantly borrowing from this blog
i just cant resist
he writes too well
amazing
http://pleasefindthis.blogspot.com
The Bridge From Solitude



Just like you mistook lust for love, you have mistaken being alone with loneliness. So I'm fine. Thank you for asking.

yeahhh.
:D

Others see you as sensible, cautious, careful and practical. They see you as clever, gifted, or talented, but modest. Not a person who makes friends too quickly or easily, but someone who`s extremely loyal to friends you do make, and who expects the same loyalty in return. Those who really get to know you realize it takes a lot to shake your trust in your friends, but equally that it takes you a long time to get over if that trust is ever broken.

tell me why - taylor swift

I took a chance, i took a shot
and you might think i'm bulletproof, but i'm not
you took a swing, i took it hard
and down here from the ground i see who you are

I'm sick and tired of your attitude
I'm feeling like i don't know you
you tell me that you love me then you cut me down
and i need you like a heartbeat
but you know you got a mean streak
makes me run for cover when you're around
and here's to you and your temper
yes, i remember what you said last night
and i know that you see what you're doing to me
tell me why..

You could write a book on how to ruin someone's perfect day
well i get so confused and frustrated
forget what i'm trying to say, oh

I'm sick and tired of your reasons
I got no one to believe in
you tell me that you want me, then push me around
and i need you like a heartbeat
but you know you got a mean streak
makes me run for cover when you're around
here's to you and your temper
yes, i remember what you said last night
and i know that you see what you're doing to me
tell me why..

why..do you have to make me feel small
so you can feel whole inside
why..do you have to put down my dreams
so you're the only thing on my mind

i'm sick and tired of your attitude
i'm feeling like i don't know you
you tell me that you want me then cut me down
i'm sick and tired of your reasons
i've got no one to believe in
you ask me for my love then you push me around
here's to you and your temper
yes, i remember what you said last night
and i know that you see what you're doing to me
tell me why
why, tell me why

i take a step back, let you go
i told you i'm not bulletproof
now you know


gosh, you dont know how much im missing you

have i post this before?

ah! what the heck

its a sad and meaningful song

listen and see if you understand it

:D

tons of questions i have but im fine leaving em unanswered

for now

more trust or simply less feelings involved?

its seems like im falling deeper and deeper into this bottomless pit

gotta get a hold on myself?

but its the things you do for her, they're uncomparable

The First Time We Met

It's when you hold eye contact for that second too long or maybe the way you laugh. It sets off a flash and our memories take a picture of who we are at that point when we first know "This is love."

And we clutch that picture to our hearts because we expect each other to always be the people in that picture. But people change. People aren't pictures. And you can either take a new picture or throw the old one away.

promises mean a lot to me

especially when you seal the promise with the pinkie hook

like a lil girl in her own sweet world

promise.

HA!
I FINALLY PLANNED AN OUTING WITH MORE THAN FIVE PEOPLE THAT ACTUALLY HAPPENED!
you know, eveytime i plan an outing
IT NEVER HAPPENS!
arghhs!
i hate that!
but piggygangers met up at harry's with the exception of tabs
oh wells
here are the photos

looks like the movie 三个好人yeah?

the girlies

see! i told you there's more than five!

my drink - the blue lagoon

which made me *ahem early!!

what the hell!

#TWYG34yvvy54GY$%Hy6g4TW%WEgt4$T#^Y%&^$&$Y2(^%f45!

MAMA I FALL DOWNNNNNNNN!! WAHHS!
well, actually two falls
(both of us actually wore white without prior agreement (:)
once during ice skating cos the front of my skates hit the ice
so i fell with my legs facing outwards
hence the five bruises on the inside of my knees
damn
and another time coming home,
i had another fall
trip on my right leg, slip on my left leg
more likely to die of embarrassment than the pain shooting through my elbow
as i landed on it and lay flat on the floor
omgawdddddddd
and my bruises are greeen
i thought bruises were purple?
damn, and im wearing shorts later to go out cos my bee says i cant wear this top
luckily they seem to have faded a lil
not too obvious i hope
this a sad sad song too
its the live version
sighs
but i like it
:D
woot woot woot!

i wanted to look for another song titled goodbye too i think

but heres what i found

its kinda sad

sighs

oh wells

and i was watching her vids

some are kinda funnie

harhar.

rubbish