yunshan*//
complain, complain, complain. now who wants to listen?

i never wanna grow up
where the innocence is lost; where troubles complicate by tenfolds

I wish i was a little kid again. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to clean up my messes and remind me what’s right from wrong. I want to be awed at, even if what I’m doing isn’t that cute. I want to be yelled at before i make the same mistakes again and I want to be held in someone else’s arms while I cry my heart out. I REALLY DO, NEVER WANNA GROW UP.

gosh

im SOOOOO EXCITED ABOUT NEXT WEEK

im going diving~

at dayang

the beach is just gorgeous!

omgawd

sighs

well, its not that im not afraid of the sea anymore

its just that i'll be able to see underwater

so that calms me a little

anyways, ive tried being underwater and it wasnt so bad

(:

im really going this time!

gosh

by the way, anyone wanna go sentosa next monday?

im afraid i might get a tan with the wet suit on and i'll have two tones

if only arisa is here

):

then i'll probably drag her there

jia suggested tanning at my dive site

ya, maybe i'll do just that

omgawd
i was bored so i googled my name
and guess what i saw?
sam ann's blog
and this is what she wrote about the secondary 2 camp
i didnt have a blog then so no written stuff about what so ever

so this is what she wrote in secondary 2

sam ann, please dont kill me

Sunday, August 17, 2003

Woopiee peeps` Back frm camp(juz yesterdae)! XD Moi grp waz David Marshall. Weird huhz. Aniwaes diz was supposed 2 b sum kinda national education camp but i've no idea y's dat. Welsh our instructor was Mr Raihan-he rawked. Thuruout da camp, miz hangin outta wif mostly liying n sam chionh. Funnie how we actuallie clicked well. First activity ish Belay sch. Sorta borin coz i learnt dat in pri5 camp liaos. Den our grp did da Zipline! Was lite totallie kewl. I was one of da first 2 go. -grnZ- Pai seh shihui` i shalln't sae anitin`. =X Den next we had the walls. We were practically up da wall halfway when it started rainin! Arghhz`so hadda stop dat n we got up da hall 2 prepare sum cheers fer campfire nite. N yeps, i actuallie challenged mr raihan 2 'dum dum dee dee' Mwahahas` i accept all challengers. =X Aftr dat had dinner but no1 bombed. Guess da ice's nort broken yett. Second dae, our grp did CRC(challenge rope course) Broken bridge was fun!!! Dunch noe y dey sae itz dat hard though. Aftr dat we had lotsa teambuildin games which had us practically tangled up 2gether in 'unchained melody' Our cheers were lame n im nort kiddin abt dat. Hahas` In all, we rilly bonded well. Later aftr lunch, we did da rock walls. Kelvin yelled 'i lurve meisy!' Woohoo meisy.....=P Mi onli managed 2 complete 1 wall, da other i did half way thru. =X Aftr dat we had a singing session wif Yusof grp. N here markz da beginning of da Bapok! Mwahahas` yoo wun noe if ya din go fer camp. XD Moi grp served da dinner den aftr dat had hell lotsa bombing. Axis, allies powers n our bapok arh` =P We go our camp tee shirtz but dey were so darn big! Arghh` Den scout bois hadda leave before campfire. HiaS` D= Our grp was da last 2 perform at campfire though. Had lotsa fun. -grnZ- Den da last dae we were all lite signin n doodling on each others' camp teeshirt. Camp memories foreva.....=D
- posted by Samantha @ 1:50 PM

Wednesday, August 13, 2003

HeylooZ` 2mr's sec2 camp! I repeat dat again` ish sec2 camp!!!!! XD Aniwaes, had sucha long assembly 2dae in sch dat it almost put mi off da camp mood. HiaS` n dey hadda put up da camp grp listing 2dae. Welshie. Ish nort dat bad considerin sam chionh, liying n abbie ish in moi grp. Roy tan n alex too. Mwahahas` ish gonna b a sumwart kerazzeh camp. Juz got mi stuff packed n ready so im kinda in an anticiaptin` mood if ya get wart i mean.....i'll b back by sat n den i'll gif a review on wartz happened n wartz happenin. =D Til den...byeee peepS!

went to feed me campaign finale concert yesterday

had a super hard time to find the place

home club, 20 upper circular road

BUT WHATS THE POINT OF KNOWING THE ADDRESS WHEN OUT OF TEN PEOPLE IVE ASKED ONLY ONE KNEW WHERE IT WAS

shit man

anyways before we got (really) lost, the fire fight walked past us

like right in front

omgawd

and when we were walking around, trying very hard to find the home club

we probably looked like stalkers

cos i wanted to ask the fire fight for directions but jia wouldnt let me!

i really dont think it was a big deal asking them

but in the end we found the place by ourselves

the three bands totally rocked the house

king kong jane, the fire fight and the west grand boulevard

tan diya was there too and she got us to sit on the floor when she was singing

kinda like her concert

hahas

anyways, at the end of the two english songs she sang

she immediately continued to xing qing by jay chou

the crowd went wild and were singing at the top of their voices

me included. hee

had a really fun time just listening to the bands rock

(:

though my ears were ringing each time they stop

and i didnt manage to get a drink

oh wells

anyways photos are on facebook

im really too lazy to upload here

too slowwwww

files too big

and i totally suck at using facebook

so NOT user friendly

cheerios

Love can be so boring

weee!

did the pool session for diving today

im shagged

both yan and i have no idea what the instructor was talking about cos we havent taken the theory lesson

hahas

seemed quite ok though

im more worried about the depth and having headaches deep in the water

):

but anyways, I MANAGED TO TREAD WATER FOR 10MINS!

HEY! ITS A BIG ACHIEVEMENT FOR ME LAH

im fit lah

i dont care

and people from gilldivers are really nice!

too bad we arent going with this group

):

theyre nice people

(:

oh wells

im really nervous about diving but tim said not to be or else might panic

shit

okok, i'll try not to think about it

i did the quiz "what alcoholic are you"

and im margarita

so ammmm

i always drink that

hahas

ok, i know this has no link

whatever lah

I SO LOVE THIS SONG

and the bassist

:D

The Fire Fight on Live 'n' Loaded from The Fire Fight on Vimeo

i ve paid for the diving trip already

and we've got 10percent discount!

weeee!

because it was their opening ceremony

so i asked if they had 10% off the diving trip too

and they did!

we saved $60 lah

happy~

and i saw someone today

i guess i can say she just does not have any manners

i called out and all i got was a flick of her hand

gosh

bad bad upbringing

yan agrees that that was rude

oh wells

i miss talking to arisa lah

cant think about work cos i'll get stress again

sighs

EVERYTHING IS GONE!!

going out puts my mind off it

dread going back to work

cant face my boss, cant face the computer without thinking,

"shit, i should be done by now. not looking for the bloody thing."

anyways, i wanna go feed me campaign finale concert

i wannaaaaaaaaa

please give me tickets

something i saw today

all taken in the same mode - scenery

whats the use of a phone if you cant use it?

whats the use of a friend if you cant talk to?

im depressed

ive lost my thumbdrive and this time its for good

with ptc a week away

and zero photos to work with

watch how i die with 21 portfolios to squeeze out

im losing sleep

drawing blanks in my brain

im stressed without even knowing i am until my head hurts

crap

why?

why is it that everytime its so near the damn deadline i get this kind of shit?

am i really that bad luck?

and my wrist's hurting again when practical piano exam is this coming thursday

give me some luck

ive misplaced my thumbdrive again

seems like i always do when its nearing ptc

damn

advice from love actually

guys are just sluts man

hahas!

tabs, they sound better live?

and i cant find the song they performed yesterday night

):

OMGAWD!!

IM STILL HIGH COS OF LIVE N LOADED!

THE FIRE FIGHT ROCK!

*SCREAMSSSSSSS

I ABSOLUTELY DID NOT REGRET GOING TONIGHT

IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT BEFORE THE SHOW

although some shitheads were kinda spoilers and making a fool out of themselves

AND THERE WERE SOOOOOOOOO MANY EYE CANDY LAH!

CRAP

I TOO HYPER TO SLEEP NOW

HOW?

I'LL UPLOAD THE PHOTOS AFTER IVE GOT IT FROM TABS (which is actually like now? hees)

WOOHOOO!

OK I NEED TO SCREAM AGAIN LAH

LISTEN!

I LIKE!

OMGAWD UTT!

too bad hes *ahem

BUT HES STILL WAYYYYYY GORGEOUS!

and we were the only ones whowent upon stage to take photo with him

the other girls took photo with him while he was on stage bending down

omgawddddd

utt *samisfarawayindreamland

US

us again inside the studio

OHOH, THIS IS JOSHUA BARKERS

HES SUPER CUTE CAN?

AND HE WEARS GEEKY GLASSES

OMGWADDD

:D

the fire fight

they rock!

i love their songs

the lyrics and the music

joshua sure know how to rock

ok, he does look funny in this photo

UTT..duh

we are so extraaaaaa

ok, tabs wanted to take photo with him

ive not idea who this is but hes damn bloody tall!

like taller than nigel by 10cm can?

this is johnny

hes cute in a funny way

but looks tee koh in photos

joshuaaaaa barrrrrkeeeeeeeerrrrrrrrrr

*sighs

utt and tabi

utt and jia

utt and i

i was the last one that was allowed to take photo with him

after me, his minders were like, "ok, utt's gotta go so maybe you girls can pass us your cameras and take a group photo?"

lucky us

(:

this guy sings damn well!

*faints over his voice (only when singing)

but he speaks like your typical singaporean

thats all folks

the rest is in facebook

(:

march is ending

IVE STILL TOO MUCH TO DO AND TOO LIL TIME!!!

arghhs!

i hope my hands dont shake and sweat during exam

sighs

piano exam is the only exam i really feel the stress

):

went to IT fair today

my gosh

it was PACKED!

i felt so claustrophobic the moment i went in

i wanted the sony camera

it was slim, many features and it only costed $199

heres the catch, ITS SOLD OUT!

damn!

so i had to look for another one

you said to look for canon or sony

sony's too expensive and i dont like canon's

so i walked around ASUS two booths three times to ask you for advice

where were you?!

anyways, i got a casio exilm Z80

and at the casio booth there was this guy that i just to have eye contact with

he suddenly gave me a big toothy smile

so cute!

like he knew me

but of cos he didnt

i like guys with big toothy smile

mostly people like to smile with their mouths closed

i cant so i like it when people smile widely too

:D

i spent so much money todayyyyyyy

gosh and i saw half a dozen people wearing superman tee

IM THE ONE AND ONLY SUPERGIRL OK! (im talking to hazel here. hahas!)

and there were people doing flag day

hey! i miss everything about secondary school ok

i saw peirceans doing flag day

im glad that they have manners

although i didnt donate to them, they smiled and said thank you

that should be the way (im like that too. lols!)

i didnt donate because i gave my last change to this woman selling wet wipes

oh wells

cheers to people with manners man!

(:

saw this on tabs blog

So which love type are you?

The Explorer:
You know the type: Explorers crave adventure and are willing to take risks. Highly curious, creative, energetic, spontaneous, they have many interests — from hiking and spelunking to theater and reading.

Famous examples: John F. Kennedy, Princess Diana, Angelina Jolie.

Under the influence: The Explorer’s behavior is largely affected by the brain chemical dopamine, which is a key player in our experience of pleasure and novelty.

Longs for: A playmate.

Bonds well with: Other Explorers.

If you are an Explorer: My advice is to go slowly. Because you’re so impulsive, you can get romantically involved too fast. And because you hate confrontation, you risk bolting from a relationship that could prove fantastic. If you find someone you are genuinely interested in, check your inclination to go out with others, and focus your energy on him or her.

If you’re dating one: Be prepared to live this romance one day at a time. Remain flexible, and know that for your partner, “dullness is a misdemeanor,” as novelist Ethel Wilson astutely put it.

The Builder:
You know the type: Typically conventional, these women and men are honorable and loyal; cautious without being afraid; calm; social; popular; and good at managing people, networking, and building family and community. Drawn to schedules and rules, they are also detail oriented, thorough, conscientious, and dependable.

Famous examples: George Washington, Colin Powell, Tiger Woods, Jennifer Aniston, Queen Elizabeth.

Under the influence: The defining neurochemical in Builders is serotonin, which modulates moods like aggression, anger, and calm.

Longs for: A helpmate.

Bonds well with: Other Builders.

If you are a Builder: Don’t let your taste for plans and schedules get in the way of trying new things on a date … unless you are going out with another Builder. Brag a little (Builders can be too modest) and, despite your love of socializing with the gang, take some time to be alone with your romantic interest. Your tendency to be protective will be appreciated, but make sure you don’t appear controlling.

If you’re dating one: Remember that Builders like to be concrete and to revel in the details. They’re attracted to others who are orderly and calm, so when you make plans, stick to them. According to my research, Builders are the most likely to seek a lifelong partner.

The Director:
You know the type: “One ought to hold on to one’s heart; for if one lets it go, one soon loses control of the head, too.” So wrote Nietzsche, and if you are a Director, you will relate. Directors are analytical and logical, straightforward, decisive, tough minded, focused, and good at rule-based and spatial skills like mechanics, math, and music. They also tend to be ambitious and competitive, as well as emotionally contained, even aloof. Yet these are the men and women who rush into a burning building to save a stranger.

Famous examples: Albert Einstein, Donald Trump, Hillary Clinton, Margaret Thatcher.

Under the influence: Testosterone (we think of it as the male sex hormone, but women have it too) is especially active in shaping the Director’s personality.

Longs for: A mind mate.

Bonds well with: Negotiators.

If you are a Director: You like to be in control and tend to date with determination, but if you can be patient and let things unfold naturally, it will help you avoid scaring off possible romance. And while you may regard expressing your emotions as a weakness, the other person is likely to take your restraint as a sign that you are cold, secretive, or uninterested. So share your feelings.

If you are dating one: Remember that he or she will respond best if you are logical, accurate, and clear. Don’t criticize yourself (many Directors regard this as pathetic), and if you want to intrigue your partner, pursue topics of substance rather than small talk.

The Negotiator:
You know the type: Negotiators are imaginative, intuitive, empathetic, and emotionally expressive, and have good verbal and social skills. Most strikingly, these people see the big picture with all the options.

Famous examples: Bill Clinton, Gandhi, Carla Bruni-Sarkozy, Sex and the City’s Carrie Bradshaw.

Under the influence: Estrogen (the so-called female sex hormone, though, again, it’s found in both genders) plays an important role in the Negotiator’s character.

Longs for: A soul mate.

Bonds well with: Directors (no wonder Hillary and Bill are still together).

If you are a Negotiator: Watch out for your inclination to be so diplomatic that you appear spineless. And avoid drowning your date in a verbal deluge. If you have met someone you like, don’t overthink the situation, endlessly going over the pros and cons. Ultimately it’s important for you not to settle for anything but a deeply meaningful, authentic relationship.

If you’re dating one: Keep in mind that Negotiators aren’t always direct, so read between the lines. Avoid being competitive with them. And don’t hesitate to talk about yourself: These people love hearing about what you’re thinking and feeling. Above all, they will fall for you if you stimulate their imagination.


i think im a negotiator
any directors reading this?
lols

they say, "If you love someone, set them free. If they come back they're yours; if they don't they never were. "

i say, "that's bullshit."

i believe more in fighting for your happiness

sher likes to take random photos of people

so tonight she was trying to take a photo of this guy's car

and she got caught!

guess what the guy did

he smiled and waved lah

cute lah

i mean that should be the way isnt it?

when people admire your things, appreciate it and show it

real cute car, the guy wasnt too bad looking

:P

samantha is in pain

her wisdom tooth is coming out

and its not the tooth thats painful

its the gum cos her tooth is totally growing sideways of the gum

its rubbing against the side of her mouth too

):

she doesnt even want to eat cos it hurts more and more each day

and she loves eating

if only relationships are like playing a piano
whatever feelings you put in, you'll get that in return
you'll be able to hear when you dont put your heart in playing
the changes in the music is equivalent to what you feel
oh wells


Broken Strings - James Morrison & Nelly Furtado

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

ARISA WROTE:

Dear SAMANTHA,
I met you!
You have a nice friend(ME!).
You make me laugh.
You should come over someday.
Someday I will convince you to come over.
You + me = disaster.
If I saw you now I'd cry.
I want to kick you.
I would build a army just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be 'thousand legged worms'.
We could dream under the stars.
Love,
arisa

(P.S. come over!.)

soooo sweetttt... awwwwww..
im going to do one for you too!
:D

Dear ARISA,
I miss you.
You have a nice smile.
You make me share things with you.
You should COME BACK REAL SOOOOOOON.
Someday I will fly there and surprise you. (if i have the $$)
You + me = annoying pair.
If I saw you now I'd give you a big hug.
I want to sing for you.
I would build a card house just for you.
If I could sing you any song it would be starry starry night.
We could chill under the stars.
Love,
samantha

(P.S. TAKE CARE.)

ARGHHHS!

too many things, too little time AGAIN

1. night cycling (that's if mom allows)

2. diving

3. cable skiing

4. ice skating

5. sentosaaaaaaa

6. paintballing

and ive portfolios to do, documentations to put up

all in the month of march

did i mention ive two piano exams too?

like theory and practical within two weeks of each other

ohoh! AND IM WATCHING A CELLO RECITAL

OMGAWD

its like my first one lah!

hope i dont fall asleep :p

my life would suck without you - kelly clarkson

Guess this means you're sorry
You're standing at my door
Guess this means you take back
All you said before
Like how much you wanted
Anyone but me
Said you'd never come back
But here you are again

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Maybe I was stupid for telling you goodbye
Maybe I was wrong for tryin' to pick a fight
I know that I've got issues
But you're pretty messed up too
Either way, I found out I'm nothing without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

Being with you
Is so disfunctional
I really shouldn't miss you
But I can’t let you go
Oh yeah

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

'Cause we belong together now, yeah
Forever united here somehow, yeah
You got a piece of me
And honestly,
My life (my life) would suck (would suck) without you

YEAH!
IVE WATCHED HE'S NOT THAT INTO YOU
OMGAWD.
JUSTIN LONG'S REALLY CUTE
as in his character
no wonder arisa said so
oh oh,
i LOVE the part where drew barrymore was listening to the voicemail,
OH~ mary, mary, mary
blah blah blah
blah blah blah
then,
OH~ jenny, jenny, jenny
blah blah OH WAIT
what number did i call?
damn funny lah
and ben affleck is still hot man
ive always thought that he's better looking than tom cruise and brad pitt
weeeee.
its much better than love actually
all i can remember about the show is
i feel it in my fingers,
i feel it in my toes,
christmas' all around me
come on and let it snowwww.


you're my exceptional