yunshan*//
complain, complain, complain. now who wants to listen?

i never wanna grow up
where the innocence is lost; where troubles complicate by tenfolds

I wish i was a little kid again. I want someone to take care of me. I want someone to clean up my messes and remind me what’s right from wrong. I want to be awed at, even if what I’m doing isn’t that cute. I want to be yelled at before i make the same mistakes again and I want to be held in someone else’s arms while I cry my heart out. I REALLY DO, NEVER WANNA GROW UP.

i jus realised the truely good times were when we were what u called "best frens"
during tat time
i nv expected anything
so there was nv disappointment
no lies
(or maybe there were, i jus din noe)
jus trust
wells
now i jus hope ull return me my cash asap
so ull offically be out of my life
ya, superficial
i noe
wells
tats the only thing ure capable of returning anyway

i did tis quiz

and heres the result

you always give others a feeling of optimisim, enthusiasm and facing challenges head-on. you also give an impression of being gentle, thoughtful, and great at managing interpersonal relationship. others feel that a person like you are strong, yet vulnerable. your caring nature and ability to accept and forgive, makes you more charming and trustworthy. you always let others think that you are someone who doesnt say "no", and it's easy to be used by people who are dependent and self-centred. these people get close to you because of your attentiveness and easygoing nature, in order to make use of you.

dun waste water,
dun waste electricity,
it aint the matter of hus paying the bills
its the matter of saving planet EARTH!
(:

the three stages of emotions one face after losing someone - denial, anger, acceptance

ive been thru all

GONE

What you sees not what you get
With you theres just no measurement
no way to tell whats real from what isnt there
Your eyes they sparkle
Thats all changed into lies that dropped like acid rain
you washed away the best of me
you dont care

You know you did it
Im gone
to find someone to live for in this world
Theres no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you
coming back when Ive finally moved on
Im already gone
Sometimes shattered
never opened
nothing matters
when youre broken
That was me whenever I was with you


Always ending, always over
back and forth, up and down like a roller coaster
I am breaking that habit today


You know you did it
Im gone
to find someone to live for in this world
Theres no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you coming back when Ive finally moved on
Im already gone


There is nothing you can say
Sorry doesnt cut it babe
Take the hint and walk away cause Im gone
Doesnt matter what you do
Its what you did thats hurting you
All I needed was the truth
Now Im gone
What you sees not what you get
What you sees not what you get


You know you did it
Im gone
to find someone to live for in this world
Theres no light at the end of the tunnel tonight
just a bridge that I gotta burn
You were wrong
If you think you can walk right through my door
That is just so you coming back when Ive finally moved on
Im already gone
Im already gone
Oh, Im already gone
Gone, gone
Already gone
Im gone

ADDICTED

Its like youre a drug
Its like youre a demon I cant face down
Its like Im stuck
Its like Im running from you all the time

And I know I let you have all the power
Its like the only company I seek is misery all around

Its like youre a leech
Sucking the life from me
Its like I cant breathe
Without you inside of me

And I know I let you have all the power
And I realize Im never gonna quit you overtime

Its like I cant breathe
Its like I cant see anything
Nothing but you
Im addicted to you
Its like I cant think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
Youve taken over me
Its like Im not me
Its like Im not me

Its like Im lost
Its like Im giving up slowly
Its like youre a ghost thats haunting me
Leave me alone
And I know these voices in my head are mine alone
And I know Ill never change my ways if I dont give you up now

Its like I cant breathe
Its like I cant see anything
Nothing but you
Im addicted to you
Its like I cant think
Without you interacting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
Youve taken over me
Its like Im not me
Its like Im not me

Im hooked on you
I need a fix
I cant take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
Ill handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then thats it
Just a little bit more to get me
through this


Im hooked on you
I need a fix
I cant take it
Just one more hit
I promise I can deal with it
Ill handle it, quit it
Just one more time, then thats it
Just a little bit more to get me
through this


(repeat once)
Its like I cant breathe
Its like I cant see anything
Nothing but you
Im addicted to you
Its like I cant think
Without you interrupting me
In my thoughts, in my dreams
Youve taken over me
Its like Im not me
Its like Im not me

Werent you the one who said that you dont want me anymore
And how you need your space and give the keys back to your door
And how I cried and tried and tried to make you stay with me
And still you said your love was gone and that I had to leave

Now you talking bout a family
Now you saying I complete your dreams
Yeah
Now you sayin Im your everything
Youre confusing me
What you saying to me, dont play with me, dont play with me
Cause....

What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now whos cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now whos cryin, desirin, to come back
I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you til 3 o clock in the morn
And when you came home you'd always have some sorry excuse
Half explaining to me like Im just some kind of a fool
I sacrificed the things I wanted just to do things for you
But when its time to do for me
You never come thru
Now you wanna be up under me
Now you have so much to say to me
Now you wanna make time for me
Whatcha doin to me, youre confusin me
Dont play with me, dont play with me
cause

What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now whos cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now whos cryin, desirin, to come back

I remember when I was sittin home alone
Waitin for you till 3 o clock in the morn
Night after night knowing something goin on
Wasnt long before I be gone
Lord knows it wasnt easy believe me
Never thought youd be the one that would deceive me
And never do what youre supposed to do
No need to approach me fool, cuz Im over you

What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down
Now whos cryin, desirin to come back to me
What goes around comes around
What goes up must come down

things to ponder about (all taken from "why the toast always lands butter side down" ):
you cant win
you cant break even
you can even quit the game

absence diminishes small loves and increases great ones, as the wind blows out the candle and fans the bonfire
you can observe a lot, just by watching
love looks not with the eyes, but with the mind, and therefore is winged cupid painted blind
the heart has reasons that reason knows nothing of
speak when you are angry and you will make the best speech you will ever regret
you think of the right thing to say just after you shut the door
people neither mean what they say nor say what they mean
nobody is entirely sad at the failure of a friend